mysecondchance

When I first went to chemo I brought all kinds of stuff such as magazines and books and my son entertained me with comedy videos on his ipod. I brought food because my oncologist didn't want me having take-out or restaurant food due to possible bacteria. I was lucky that I always had one or two people with me. After a couple of times I found I just liked to relax. I also took pictures of myself with my cell making silly faces and sent them to friends so they could see I was doing okay.

After surgery I had chemo through a port in my abdomen, laying flat on my back not even able to get up to go to the bathroom. That was harder and I just tried to sleep or zone out.

bpositive, please never feel bad about venting. You have been through so much on your journey and have at least earned the right to talk about it. I go to a message board called, Cancer Survivors Network (which is part of ACS). When I found this site I sobbed as I was posting because I found women who knew exactly what I was going through. It was a big help. I felt hopeless and helpless and needed to hear that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. We vent, we cry, we mourn but we also celebrate each victory or good moment in each other's lives. I have even met one of the women who lives in my area. Please check it out. You'll see my same picture there (I am computer challenged) and my screen name is kikz.