SirKenneth's Journey with Colorectal (Colon) Cancer

Fear of colon cancer - colostomy - inadequacy of male sexuality if having a colostomy bag - possible pain or death chance

Living with other 63 old males in a shelter and having a colostomy bag will cause me a sense of embarrassment and shame...

Fell alone and as a male don't want to appear like a big sissy or unmanly

Fear of surgery - pain - alone less - shame of possible colostomy bag being seen by other men in showers or dressing rooms. A women's feelings about having a romantic involvement sexually...

At this stage of uncertainty of colon cancer my fears may cause me to use alcohol or drugs. I have mental illness and chemical dependency disorder and attend weekly groups at the County of Riverside Cathedral Canyon Wellness Clinic for dealing with my mental illness and associated chemical dependency issues. Currently I am in a recovery stage. My fear may cause me to drink and or commit suicide. I am suffering with suicidal ideologies constantly...

If I loss my full head of hair it might grow back and my male body hair will most not likely grow back and be a sexual turn off to potential women sex partners and hopeful long-term relationship with a women