AllisonV's Journey:

On December 15 my amazing husband lost his short (4months) battle to EC. Just writing that feels wrong. He was 4 days shy of his 42nd birthday. I am still trying to process all this. Four months ago when he started treatment I never tought I would be here writing this. In September he was diagnosed as stage three but by Thanksgiving when he went into the hospital for ascites they told him it was stage 4. I wonder if is oncologist knew more then he let on because the cancer spread so fast, and I dont think he would have suffered through treatment if he didnt have to. He just never caught any breaks and never had good days. I lost him once the treatment started, he was never himself again. The hardest part of this cancer was watching him take his last breath. I miss him every moment of every day. Yesterday was Christmas and I wonder how I got through. Its hard to watch others be so happy when you are so sad and empty