zoomdots' Journey with Breast Cancer

result of mammogram was- this is not cancer "don't worry" from 2005 until 2012 lump grew now there is a change in the diagnosis- yes there is cancer in the breast deciding about how this will change my lifestyle

was this lump cancer in 2005??? how to trust the doctors now???

treatment plan includes drugs that are making me feel like i need to vomit, more tired than usual, appetite has decreased

does this drug stop the naseau feeling ? so far no vomiting on hand are several meds-am i going to become dependent on drugs to heal? this is not my cup of tea

sense of purpose is to be apart of the community as a home care provider been recommende by several trusted persons not to work- or to seek part-time opportunities is this a path to re-enter college? is this a path to write a book & attempt to publish? is this a path to change jobs? car in need of repair-mechanic gave up on the vehicle, he urged me to sell & no transportation always wanted to own a vespa-$$$ home care providers dont run errands with patients on the back of a vespa! job stress-

biopsy result showed that yes this is cancer consulting with many doctors now in the care of doctors at santa monica hospital treatment plan now in the formulating stages chemo starts as soon as insurance approves part of me just wants this lump out! part of me does not trust the doctors and this could be a barrier to heal & be cured of cancer

many supportive persons have entered this journey along with me offering support friendship support- emotional,spritual,physical,intellectuall,financial & more being encouraged by the example of cancer survivors some negative influences are now a source of strength as well