January the 9, 2012 I start the Chemo. I am so unsure of all of this right now. I have completed most of all paper work. I feel very happy it is complete before I am starting the treatment. It is hard for me to go into the unknown. I wish I knew about how I will feel after this. It shocks me! It's as if I had my whole life plan on a piece of paper and poof... I am now planning it all again taking steps without knowing the outcome. This is different,scary and something I am just going to have to learn how to do.