Judalou,
I am here if you have any questions. I work in end of life care as well. Judging by your post one could see that this is not the outcome you expected and that in itself is understandable, you have invested much time in your battle. But this life is still yours and although you may not be standing on that familiar battlefield, you are indeed still standing...not a loss by any means. I am here if you need me. My best to you, Carm RN.

Judalou. You are a fighter and thank you for continuing to be there for us. Stay strong and continue to fight. Sending prayers.

Sending prayers and caring your way!