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Side Effects Associated with Colorectal (Colon) Cancer. Posted on April 27, 2019 View this journey (11 Experiences)

I had my 1st mop-up round of chemo and disconnected from the pump on Thursday. I made the two hour drive to my mountain place and realized that these rounds were going to be a lot different than the first. The fatigue hit me like a ton of bricks but the worst thing was the emotional struggle I felt. I am having a hard time coming to grips with doing these last rounds of chemo, I was just feeling on the mend from the liver and colon resection and now here comes the YUCK again. I still have a lot of tightness around my incision site of the liver and having the queasiness to boot now is miserable. I told myself I would do 8 treatments which means two more to go. I know it is a personal decision to make. The first five treatments even with Avastin did not not hit me like this one did. All I wanted to do was get in my bed and cry. My eyes hurt from the chemo when I cried so that was like "icing on the cake". So much of this nasty disease is such a life consuming gamble with not guarantees. I truly reach hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel with this. I just wasn't prepared for how quickly the "yuck" would seep back in. I approached the first rounds in attach and win mode. Now that I have had the surgery to remove the tumors, it kills me to put the chemo back in my body but I'm as human as anyone else and I wrestle with thoughts of what the chemo is doing to my newly cut liver and body. I know there aren't easy answers for any of us. Just wanted to get this out of my system.

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    lo15

    I wish you peace. Sending positive thoughts, breathe the air and try to relax. I think things will be ok for you

    about 1 month ago

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