Understand how you feel. I had chemo fo 5 months and was on Herceptin for another 10 months becasue I was HER2 positive. Always felt better with those little cancer fighters running through my veins. Now I'm flying solo, had my port out two weeks. It's scary to be on my own. Some how I miss the comfort of seeing that stuff dripping into my veins.
Yet I'm excited to begin a more normal life. Good luck to you!