Symptoms - tuckercat2

Symptoms Associated with Invasive Lobular Carcinoma . Posted on July 23, 2018 View this journey (14 Experiences)

I had a my surgery 4 years and 8 mos. ago. I continued hormone therapy up until two months ago.

I thought I had very little mental side effects from the treatment. I continued to work and still work at the same job.

I stopped getting raises over 2 years ago and of course, no bonus either. I knew that there had been business problems with some employees who cost more than they brought in.

I thought that was why I didn't get a raise or bonus.

I asked my boss if I had been so bad that I didn't deserve any raise at all, and before I finished the question he said yes.

I was devastated. I had always been an employee that was one of the better ones, had job offers from other bosses who saw my work. To find out that I was one of the below par employees and I didn't even know it. I went home and cried on my husband's shoulder.

Stopping the pills hasn't helped me regain the ground I had lost. It seems that since I could ask about it my boss could tell me how bad I was and seem to still be almost every day.

I don't know what would be the best thing for me to do. Try and become what I was or just retire (I am 64 yrs old) or hang out one more year to reach the 65 year mark.

I am trying so hard! But I can not defend myself against things I did not know about.

Today it was my boss saying I am afraid to give you the job folders because you keep losing them. I did not know I had lost any! It seems that any mistake I make no matter how small or how often others do the same mistake, mine is the only one noticed. I don't know what to do. The constant remarks about how much worse I am now than before is tearing me up. I can not help what happened. God knows I never wanted cancer! Who would!! I didn't want to have to take hormone killing pills, but I didn't want to have cancer again.

I thought I was doing good. I feel so, I don't have words to describe how I feel.

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  • beachbum5817's Avatar

    @tuckercat2, I am so sorry that you have to deal with this. It would have been nice for someone to let you know that there was a problem when it happened. As you said you can't fix a problem if you aren't aware of it. Maybe someone in HR could be of help to you. Good luck. Take care.

    11 months ago

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