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    I just can't handle reading this any longer , I am very sad for all of you. The doctor said with treatment one to two years, He did not even live six months

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    Spouse having very bad few days, He is eating even less, said has this gosh awful taste in his mouth. Having trouble getting him to drink or eat. Please pray for us again. It is awful to see a love one suffer so much and I know you all understand this. All of you are always in my prayers. Thank YOU God for being with all the caregivers and all the sufferers. Please give us strength and a cure would be wonderful

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      Glenda

      He had really good two days before his last treatment (#2) Was thinking from what everyone said, that each time would be very similar but this one he has acted very different

      over 10 years ago
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      Word can not express the emotions that we feel. I hate when I get this weak, helpless feeling. I hung my head in prayer the other day and asked God to help me dissect these super high/low feelings. I never know when they are going to wash over me (the low days). And then there are hours of the day that things are normal. The night before this prayer I woke up every hour with dreams of anger. My anger was aimed right at my husband. The Lord showed me that my days were being controlled by his days. If he had a good day...then I had a good day. And vise/versa. I was reminded of scripture (my words)...we do become as one. With this understanding I accept these bad days. We do feel pain/fear together. We are one. God be with you. Amen

      over 10 years ago
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    Yesterday things got better as far as bowel movements went, after taking MOM and miralax on Wed. He is having no energy still. Stept better last night and today. still wore out. He has quit taking very many pain pills trying to suffer thru the pain, because he assumes this is what was causing the constipation. His hair on his head , ears, nose is mostly gone. He first had chemo Nov. 1 and due to go back Nov. 21. After 18 days finally got a little relief and he is scared to go back on Monday 21, I feel so sorry for him. No one tries to give you education on what might happen. Thank you guys for trying to help an old lady out (66) They just always everyone is totally different. Some folks say don't get on the internet, that will scare you to death.
    I am so scared and it is not me who is sick so I know he is. The Cancer Center advised him not to have company, and not being around a crowd, hugging, shaking hands. All that kind of things. It is so hard being alone, even when you not sick.
    Anyway thanks again for being there, Praying for all of us on this journey.

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      fulto11

      My husband started this journey on Sept.11,2011. Everyone has gotten scared to ask me, "hows he doing?". My thoughts stop and my mind goes to many different places. Do I say okay, do I say I don't know, etc?? I just start choking. I still feel so ignorant. Missed first treatment because noone told us that he needed blood test, first. One thing I am sure of; reading this web site and hearing testimonies from fighters....gives me the strength to push forward. Sometimes I am scared of offending or asking dumb questions, but I find everyone to be so helpful.
      We are now in the process of removing our thoughts from this issue. In the beginning it absorbed us. Topic of conversation. Now, we are pushing forward and can sit over our morning coffee and discuss the weather and laugh. I encourage our two daughters to bring the grandchildren by more often. In the beginning noone wanted to "bother" us. So many would meet me in church/street and say, "I wanted to come by, but I don't want to bother ya." I beg them to come by (even if its for 20 minutes). When people ask me what they can do; I state to give him a 5 minute call. For every hour of the day that we can release our minds from this journey...it eases the fears and tension. Our 3 yr. old granddaughter can make anyone laugh. "You look like an old foggy"(bald). "Let me get in your bed to watch cartoons. It will make you feel better." "We need some icecream. You tell Nanny we want to eat in bed." God bless and stay strong.
      Well, I think I just rambled.

      over 10 years ago
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    Treatment is every three weeks. Only had one, due for next treatment Nov 21, 2011
    Last Monday seen nurse change pain meds. Now take 10 MG of hydrocodon and 15 MG of morphine sulfate. The Morphine is taken every 12 hours and the hydrocodon is as needed. Spouse is having great pain in mouth, calling it jaw pain. I am scared for him because he seems to want to take the hydrocodon more regular says the morphine does not help. He seen doctor on Wed and the doctor said he can take the morphine every 8 hours if needed. but he has not started that yet. He could care less about eating. because of the pain in his mouth. Before Monday he was taking (2) 5 MG of hydrocodon, every four hours and that seem to be working but his mouth was not hurting then. He had been constipated and they told him to take 2 sensakot s twice a day and drink prune juice. He said the dam broke loose but still is not going regular.
    I was thinking that after two weeks, he would lose his hair but not yet.
    I was thinking that after two weeks his appetite would come back but not yet.

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    On June 22, 2011 a procedure was done: Flexible fiberoptic bronchoscopy with endobronchial biopsies .
    Impressions Endobronchial tumor obstructing the left mainstem bronchus. Endobronchial biopsy taken. and Ulceration of the mucose of the epigiottis and white nodule adherent to left vocal cord.On June 24, 2011 we went into her office: First thing she said was inoperable lung cancer. Then when we left she gave us paperwork that said: She found a tumor obstruction most of the left main stem bronchus. Biopsy demostrated squamous cell lung cancer. AT time he weighed approx. 195 lbs. approx a month before this he weighed around 210 lbs. He is 5' 8" tall.

    This is really the very beginning of a journey that we had not ever even thought of. More later

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    I am scared. I catch myself when he is asleep making sure he is breathing. I can not talk about death. I feel alone.