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    I'm feeling melancholy today. I'm excited about the possibility of getting a job working at home which would be a dream come true but it is making me think about the career I used to have. I was a flight attendant before all this cancer stuff. I loved it so much and it looks like I might have to give in and leave it behind. I'm actually crying right now. That's how much I loved my job. This cancer has really turned my life upside down. I am technically still an employee of Delta Airlines but if I pursue this new occupation and make it a career I will be forced to give up my standing at Delta. I hoped that I would get well enough to go back to work there but it's been over 3 years and I really need to make some extra money as I have lost everything including my 401k and savings because of this cancer. The long term disability company that takes care of the long term disability for Delta really does not care about people and if I make too much money, (which is not much), they will take away my insurance (which I pay for by the way) which is secondary to medicare, but helps me pay for my health care. If I don't have this I will be working for nothing. I have to be careful not to make more than their limit. Why is it in this country are we punished for getting sick. That is what it fees like anyway...I am really kind of afraid to take this job at home but I really need to move forward. I don't expect anyone to answer this and please don't feel sorry for me 'cause I don't feel sorry for myself - I'm just sad that it has finally come to this. I'm really just writing this for myself I guess.....

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      LiveWithCancer

      So Jay, i came to your wall to learn more about you. I didn't even really know what an urethra was, so can't answer your question... guess no one else knows either ... and for that I am sorry.

      Anyway, i read these posts - this one and the one to Jodi. What an incredible person you are!!! You are someone I would like to know, for sure, with your positive and upbeat attitude, despite trials and tribulations.

      Did you end up having to quit Delta? I am afraid you probably did. I hope you love your new job ... though if you are doing what you wrote about here, it must not feel new 3 years later.

      Just wanted to touch base with you and tell you what a remarkable person I think you are.

      almost 6 years ago
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      Jay

      WOW, that post was a long time ago and I have had quite a journey since then. Thanks for your interest. I have had to retire from Delta at this point and am unable to work at this point. I am doing well but have issues that don't allow me to work a regular job. I am learning to tune Pianos as I have played most of my life. I would be able to plan my schedule around things I have to do. I'm basically a mess physically but you would never know by looking at me. I'm just a bit skinny. All of my disabilities are "hidden" as they say. haha. I always try to maintain a positive attitude because I have no choice as far as I'm concerned. I could sit around feeling sorry for myself but what a waste of my valuable time! Take care, Jay

      almost 6 years ago
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      LiveWithCancer

      Wishing you the very best! I hope you'll be around here more - love your wonderful attitude!!!

      Good luck with the piano tuning. It would be horrible if I tried to do something like that ... tone deaf :( :( I used to get a kick out of my little family at church. My son, my husband, and I would all be singing ... all off-key in a different key!!! I know the people near us wished we would just mouth the words!! :)

      I agree 100%. I have never felt self-pity was a good use of time, either!

      almost 6 years ago