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    These surveys are difficult to qualify for! LOL!

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    It has been an interesting week or so. I finally found out the results of all of my tests and I now know I have metastatic breast cancer. The Radiology Oncologist‘s exact words were “It’s worse than we thought.” I wanted to say, “Skip the dramatics, doc, and just give it to me straight!” I like to point out the blessings in every negative situation if I can. It has spread from the lymph nodes in neck down to the lymph nodes in my abdomen, all on the left side, there is a large mass under my left arm, which would explain the numb feeling, the pain, and the lymphedema, and there is a nodule in my right lung. But the cancer hasn’t touched any of my organs and it’s not in my bones. I start radiation November 1st to start relieving the symptoms I’ve been having with my left arm though the doctor said it might not help with the lymphedema. The rest of my treatment will consist of chemo. I’m starting my second week of the chemo pill, Ibrance, and so far I haven’t been experiencing any symptoms. We shall see what my main oncologist says once I see her in November.

    I know that if I wasn’t a believer in God I would be distressed by all of this and just give up but I surrender to God and put all of my trust in Him because His Will is what’s best for me. And God has been amazing in all of this, never leaving my side. He has kept me in good spirits and has placed people in my path who have been nothing but encouraging and whose words have been everything I needed to hear, like the guy who was in the waiting room with his father who had lung cancer, waiting to do the radiation simulation like I was who talking about his father’s treatment and the positive results people he knew had received from radiation and my fellow church member who was overflowing with joy in heart, encouragement, and expressions of love for and trust in God despite also being stage 4. I hadn’t been to church since I received my diagnosis, which I didn’t realize but really it’s only been two Sundays, but I’m so glad I made it because the sermon and one of the songs the choir sang seemed geared towards me. Isn’t God amazing? I think so. No matter where this cancer journey takes me, I know that I will be fine because I belong to God and I am in His hands. He will take care of me as He always has and that’s one of the many reasons why I love Him.

    Btw, I joined the Metastatic Breast Cancer Network, their registry, and a support group I found through the Ibrance website. They have a lot of great resources on the Ibrance website! Perhaps I can get on a clinical trial. Anyway, I shall close with a song God gave my fellow church member with cancer, which was for me, too. It’s Trust In You by Anthony Brown: https://youtu.be/va5I6MOF-8M

    Lyrics

    You did not create me to worry

    You did not create me to fear

    But you created me to worship daily

    So I’m a leave it all right here

    My hands are raised because I surrender

    Your will is what’s best for me

    I worship You because You’re Jehovah Jireh

    I bow before the King of Kings

    No more crying, no more complaining

    I believe Your Word is true

    Lord, You promised to never to leave me lonely

    So this is what I’m going to do

    I will trust in You, Lord

    I will trust in You, Lord

    I will put my trust in You

    Thank you for reading! ❤️

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      beachbum5817

      I am sorry that you have to go through all of this again. I will remember you in my prayers. Keep us posted on how you are doing. Good luck. Take care.

      7 months ago
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    So today I finished the last of my tests and Wednesday I find out the status of my cancer. *Dun dun dun* I am praying that it has chosen to stay put and not take a tour of my body. In any event, I officially started my oral chemo this evening so the fight has now officially begun! It’s been three hours since I’ve taken it and so far no symptoms as far as I can tell but it’s only the first dose so we shall see I suppose. I’m already emotionally detaching from my hair just in case this medicine also causes hair loss. It’s apparently pretty common along with nausea and vomiting.

    As I wait on the results of these tests (bone scan, ct scan, pet scan), I don’t feel fearful. I don’t really feel much of anything except hope that the cancer hasn’t spread too far. For those who are believers, I am completely placing my life in God hands so whateve happens happens. Like my mother says, “If you’re going to pray, don’t worry, and, if you’re going to worry, don’t pray.” I am learning more and more to trust God and I feel such peace knowing that He is handling it. Truly place your burdens in His hands and leave them there.

    Tomorrow I officially start my support group and I am really excited. I pray it goes well. Have a great night and thank you for reading!

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      Gabba

      I love your attitude...I will keep you in my prayers...let us know how you are doing from time to time.

      7 months ago
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      dmarussell

      Hoping you hear only the best possible results!

      7 months ago
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      Bug

      mandybruin, how are you doing?

      7 months ago
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    Gee whiz! Is there anything worse than the waiting game after doing a biopsy (rhetorical question)? When I did my biopsy that led to my breast cancer diagnosis I only thought about it passively until I got "the call." I guess I never imagined cancer could happen to me (who does, right?). This time my brain keeps going right to the worst case scenario: the dreaded diagnosis - cancer has returned but now it's endometrial cancer! AHHHH!!! How did you cope with the waiting period?

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