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    I have been absence for a bit ( me the caregiver ) for my BF Memme and for my father who lives with me due to a stroke and is wheelchair bound as the story goes the caregiver is the last to think of her own needs as she tries to wear as many hats as possible
    In May 2014 I had a heartattack ( me I am on 54 ) so one week in the hospital the stents in place praise God for me being in the Doctors office when it happened I have recovered and now live a heart smart life style change, then in Dec 2014 I passed out here at home ( would not wake up when my husband tried ) so by ambulance I was rushed to the hospital to lay in a medically induced coma for 9 days while they tried to figure out what had placed me there - The wordsSevere Septic Shock ( of which I had never heard ) along with a very very bad UTI caused my body to start shutting down on itself - the list of other issues came into play - Kidney failing - heart failing - lungs full of fluid left me hospitalized for the month of Dec - but then by the grace of god I fault back and came home the day after Christmas - wow another Glody be to God 2 times almost dead and by his grace I came home - well I have been struggling to get back to my old self which is not as easy to do when you are so so weak but one more Glory to God moment - then in June 2015 as I rushed to go to my oldest brothers side as he also had a heartattack I totaled my car hit by to cars the completely took out my passage side of the car and spun me around and a round ( glass flew everywhere ) severe cuts to my right hand - so flash forward to now - I had my rotator cuff torn ( left arm ) bad cuts on my right hand - I am healing finally - I may never find my way back to the old me but 3 times in a matter of 1 year and a half I am planning Halloween with my grandchildren and looking forward to the Holidays with my family and my Daddy who by gods grace is still with me - praise God for my hubby and family he was cared for for a really long time - and did I mention my Oldest brother lives with me now after Quad By Pass Surgey on his heart -
    In the mean time my best friend Memme is doing ok by gods grace - I have not been there for her and it saddens me but she still has good and bad days today she is still NEOD praise God but the damage done from the last to recurrences of the cancer - radiation have beat her down she continues to be in heavy pain from the scar tissue damage but she my storm trooper as she still hangs in there - Say a prayer because the Pet Scan is at the beginning of the year and as she always says it's just something no one can describe waiting and wondering but for now we are back together ( as she was with me during my many hospital issues I will now again be there for her ) Happy Holidays and I just say with this bit of knowledge
    The Lord will fight for you - you only need to be still
    Exodus 14:14 --- He's got this - God bless such wonderful people here you are all in my prayers

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    I have been given no active Cancerous activity on the tumor so for now the tumor on the pelvic region is an all clear - I guess always waiting for the other shoe to drop so to speak is normal but for now until next scan all's ok - still anemic and taking iron supplements and working on regaining energy still very tired - seeing a urologist for bathroom issues - scar tissue damage that will continue - but thankful for tomorrow - heck for today - I Hope everyone has a Wonderful Thanksgiving - as always you are all in my thoughts - thank you all for the support

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    I want to thank every single one of you for your prayers thru this last six months of Chemo and Radiation. Your prayers worked ! Pet Scan shows tumor is no longer cancerous ! And no new ones either! Now if I can get rid of pneumonia and get my iron level back up I should start feeling like ME again ! Thank you all for standing by me and with me this has been really rough on me this time I have been so so sick - unlike the first bout of Cancer 2 years ago - now to start on my antibiotics and iron tablets - :0) -

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    Well the last Chemo treatment was almost 3 weeks ago and I have been so sick I haven't been able to get on line - Throwing up , nauseous every hour on the hour - taking my meds for nausea but still so sick - I guess it is finally just catching up with me all the Chemo just everything - haven't been able to eat much at all - I got the full flu like feeling this time that made every bone in my body ache I just wanted to crawl in a hole and die - maybe I had just been too sick from the past Chemo's to feel the full effects of the shot but this time oh my lord - well next week I get my Pet scan then will find out if all this Chemo which hospitalized me 4 out of 7 times has worked. I have the Pet on Monday then go see the Chemo Doc then 3 days later I will see my radiologist to have him review the results and see if CyberKnife did its work also -- sorry to sound so bummed but I how have a really bad cold that has settled in my chest and it feels like its being crushed - I can barely breathe on Antibiotics for an already in the dirt immune system - well u all know - hopefully I will have results in 2 weeks so I will update then - just not sure how much more I can take - thanks for allowing me to vent - not giving up but totally beaten down right now - and as if things could not be worst my home got struck by lighting Monday night and I lost Internet, my living room TV, my cable boxes, my phone, my Mac lap top - now I have to pay 1000 ded on home owners insurance to cover my losses - a break would be nice - I have no Ins anyway so bills just continue to pile up - this being Cancer number 2 x 3 years - u can just imagine the bills -- I get disability but it pays so little - night all just can't say anymore - no strength anymore

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      GregP_WN

      Sorry you had a run of "bad luck" as if cancer can be called bad luck. But I understand, it seems like it ought to be a rule that if we have to deal with cancer we shouldn't have to deal with anything else at the same time, kind of a pass. But it doesn't work that way. Hope you're doing better by now.

      over 6 years ago
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    the Doctor lowered the dose of Chemo the last go round and changed Chemo from every 21 days to a full 4 weeks out but it still caused me to be hospitalized this last go round -- 3 hospitalizations in 4 treatments have been very rough on my body due to very low potassium - nauseous bouts -and no food tolerated period for chemo week and the week following but it all starts back next week ;0( -- however a bit of GOOD NEWS I met with my radiation oncologist today and he was happy to report that I am responding very well to the radiation and he is happy with my PET scan, so come on chemo.. do your job... I have 2 more chemo infusions with the first of the 2 starting a week from today...continued prayers all goes well -- ;0)

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      LauraJo

      prayers being said.....glad to hear you are getting a positive response after all you have had to go through

      over 6 years ago
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      iveysmemaw

      Prayers will be lifted up for you Memmie.....

      over 6 years ago
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    Currently in the hospital after this treatment of chemo which is number 4 of 7 - fainted on Friday and was admitted - potassium very low - thrush - receiving fluids - antibiotics - not sure when I will go home - out of 4 treatments I have been in hospital 3 times this go round - chemo may kill me - waiting for the next Pet scan - really hoping the treatment is working and tumor will be gone

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      GregP_WN

      Sorry it's beating up on you like this. It's hard I know. I too landed in the hospital a time or two during treatments. The treatments are hard on us, but that means they are doing battle against the cancer. Try to stay positive and think that in just a few months you will start feeling close to your old self again. We wish you the best.

      over 6 years ago
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      allier4

      Sending hugs your way! Let us know how you are doing!

      over 6 years ago
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    Hospitalized on day 5 after 5 FU - Cisplatine - and Nuelasta - this makes 3 times in the hospital with only 4 chemo treatments under me - still have 2 possibly 3 more to go - body rejects chemo - How chemo starts - Monday 8 hours chemo of the 5 FU and Cisplatine then they hook up the 5FU to take home Monday afternoon - I go back in for fluids - on Wed and Fri and then they remove the 5FU and I get the Neulasta shot then I am sick as a OMG for the next week - so I get 2 weeks out of 4 that I feel better - it was 2 weeks out of 3 but because my body is not handling Cancer the second go round better my Doctor moved my treatments from 21 days to 30 - and has lowered my chemo twice - no more can be done - lord help me I may not survive the chemo :(