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THIS is why I love the Met (everything else is great too). This is the BEST lobster bisque I've ever eaten. And I'm not a lobster fan.

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Our dinners at The Metropolitan Grill in downtown Seattle. Amazing!

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Happy me celebrating five years of survivorship with my honey at our favorite restaurant. Not too bad for a stage IV ovarian cancer survivor.

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Hey there group, and Hi Becca 40.

I've been in and out of the site periodically, and am now grateful to see familiar names. And I like to say howdy to new members and you've chosen well for collective support and understanding.

I'm in need AGAIN. I think I'm looking at my second recurrence and too soon for my taste (after only 8 months of remission). I'm scared (and a mad).

In advance of my quarterly checkup my CA125 is up to 52 from my remission of 8. I was in remission for 27 months before the 1st recurrence.... that is what has me scared.

At the end of the 1st recurrence treatment in February, my gyn-oc suggested a parp inhibitor, but due to poor timing, I had just lost my insurance and have had none since. The medication was too expensive for me, and I was hoping to be okay until the 1st of the year to begin the rx... now it may be too late to start since I'm showing signs of recurrence.... guess what ...chemo is just as expensive. Perhaps I took the wrong path.

I'm scared because I now have care of a 4 year old and don't want to leave, or show her signs of illness. The treatment for the recurrence was only 1x monthly and I could conceal that from her easily, but if I have to do chemo again, the dr. said it would be back to carbo & taxol and I'd lose my hair = more visible sign of being sick.

I'm scared because even though things are better with my partner, Eddie, he can't take care of her by himself.

I'm scared because I don't know what to expect.

I'm scared because I live 1100 miles from my dr.

I'm scared because I have so much to do and can't leave a mess for others.

I'm scared because I don't want to burden Eddie and the 4 year old with care, complexities, and loomingness of the disease.

I'm scared because I'm 56 years old!

I know the self talk... and with objectivity it works but there are the waves of despair.

So, you will be seeing more of me as I begin to ask other questions.

I recently saw a sign "one today is worth two tomorrows"... I wonder!

Be well,
Linda

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Woohooo! My yo-yo quilt that I stitched during my chemo session won an Honorable Mention st the Washington State Fair - and they didn't even know the story behind it!

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Star Wars Night at the ballpark: Everett Aquasox.

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Star Wars Night at the ball park; Everett Aquasox.

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