• Does anyone here feel like the battle of colon cancer never ends? I go this week for my scans and I am always so nervous that I get myself sick. It has been 2 years and 6 months for me and I feel like they are just waiting for my cancer to reoccur and a

    Asked by hometown on Sunday, February 5, 2012

    Does anyone here feel like the battle of colon cancer never ends? I go this week for my scans and I am always so nervous that I get myself sick. It has been 2 years and 6 months for me and I feel like they are just waiting for my cancer to reoccur and a

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    • mamajltc's Avatar
      mamajltc

      Hi...your question touched me. My husband was diagnosed sept 09, just about the same time as you. It is hard...so hard. As a person who has watched it all...surgeries, chemo (ongoing for him), radiation, etc.
      First, allow yourself to be sad and angry. It's how you feel and it's OK.
      Know that every day, we get closer to better treatments and cures and prevention. Knowledge is king. My husband (stage 4 colon cancer), is now on Erbitux. It was a trial drug less than 15 years ago, and now it is here for good.
      Always choose hope.
      If you can, find others like you, and have coffee or chat or walk or just hug. And try to find a good laugh amongst them
      i find that anything to take our mind off it, is healing.
      If you have a hobby...do it...and do it more
      I always crocheted, but am doing it much more now.
      If cancer has taught me one thing, it is truly to live one day at a time. It is very hard sometimes, and i often cannot do it. But I always tell my husband that he is here today, and that's a great thing.
      Some days are better than others. Side affects take their toll. Every other month when he has his scan, I go into panic mode. I told his doctor it's how i feel and chemo nurse and everyone around me. It is not to complain, but explain, that this is a nerve wracking time. So this is a time i have allowed myself to feel sorry for myself my husband and kids. The next day and weeks are always better.
      Please know that you are never alone...and that my positive thoughts are with you.

      about 5 years ago
    • Liyhann's Avatar
      Liyhann

      Hometown: Thanks for your question. I was diagnosed last June (2010) with colon cancer metastasized to the liver and tumors diffuse in the liver. Although I've been very optimistic, sometimes too much so! - (my oncologist cousin once gently reminded me, "Liyhann, remember it's not a sprint, it's a long distance battle.") I guess I didn't get realistic until I read your question. Then the lovely answer by mamajltc. I thank you, Hometown, for asking because I would have been there and wondering, "What the heck?" but now I feel a bit more prepared with the reminder that things DO change and new drugs are always being readied. Keep hope is right.

      about 5 years ago
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      hometown

      Thank you both for responding as I think I just need to talk to someone and you both have been here for me. I want my scans to be over this week and then the dread of waiting to see the Dr for the results is always hard. Thank You Again Joyce

      about 5 years ago
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      cjtigers

      Oh my gosh, it's like we're on the same wavelength. I, too, am 2 years from my diagnosis, but always go alittle crazy with anxiety right before my follow up ct scans and appointments. In fact, I have both coming up in 2 weeks. Going to my support group helps, although I haven't been since before Xmas. I definitely need to go this week for some much needed support. I try not to think of the worst case scenario ( a recurrence), but I think it's human nature.

      about 5 years ago
    • hometown's Avatar
      hometown

      cjtigers glad to hear someone else is on the same page a myself. I need to join a support group as I have no support from most of all the people I am in contact with. I live with my son and his wife and two older children and they don't want my cancer to be discussed so it is very hard for me to walk around with all the anziety and have no one to talk to Thanks for the reply and I wish you the best with your scans

      about 5 years ago
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      RuthAnne

      I'm with you, Sister. See my latest post: http://ruth-worldofcancer.blogspot.com/. Maybe it's the season?

      about 5 years ago
    • AngieJ's Avatar
      AngieJ

      Hi I feel the same way about upcoming scan ; my scan is Friday & I woke up @5:30 am ,I don't usually wake up until 11-12:00 noon . I was diagnosed July 2011 tx surgery ,2 rounds 2 diff chemo ,25 days radiation completed . I am also on anxiety mode again waiting for my 2nd scan .my husband & I joined Gildas club & my mom joined too ,Gildas club is wonderful before support meeting they have a dinner which is great ,I hope you feel better soon & sorry you are going through these feelings ,remember you are not alone .Angie

      about 5 years ago
    • cjtigers' Avatar
      cjtigers

      You know, everyone knows about all of the horrible side effects of cancer treatment, but it is much less known about the emotional toll it takes on us. I was always a very level headed, independant person before this all happened. During treatment I went through terrible depression and fear. My dr put me on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety drugs plus recommended counseling. I think it literally saved my life. To anyone out there battling these demons I highly recommend seeking help not only for your cancer but for your mental and emotional well being.

      about 5 years ago
    • hometown's Avatar
      hometown

      Thanks Angie and cjtigers, it does feel better to know I am not alone out there, I also have been on antidepressants and anziety meds, and at time I feel like they help a lot, and at other times I wonder. Last night after al my meds I was awake until 5am trying not to think about the scan tomorrow, but nothing muh works when you have no one to talk to about these feelings you are having. I thanks you for taking the time to respond Joyce

      about 5 years ago
    • cjtigers' Avatar
      cjtigers

      Fear and anxiety are such powerful emotions I think that short of taking a horse tranquilizer, we're still going to feel it. When all else fails, talking it out with an understanding friend or counselor is the only thing that I find helps to calm me down, and the effect can last for days. I must admit too, my pets were a great comfort to me. My husband works the nightshift and I swear my cats and dog were the only thing that got me through those lonely, scary nights alone. In the middle of the night I would reach over and feel my cat sleeping in my husband's spot. Just feeling a warm body next to me brought me great comfort.

      about 5 years ago
    • hometown's Avatar
      hometown

      cjtigers, you are so right and because of my living arangements I can't have a pet which I know would be a big help to me. I had my ct/pet done yesterday and it seemed like everyone was in a horrible mood and it just made me worse. Now the wait to see what the results are. Thanks for the mail Joyce

      about 5 years ago

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