Well first simply by your photo. Cat people are needed and wanted. I felt the same guilt..... did God get this wrong.... I'm almost 70 and 30 somthing dies..... But we know God does not make mistakes!!!! Say that 50 times!!!!! You yourself are valuable beyond all measure!!! I ended up writing a poem regarding this feeling. I hope it helps you!
by Carol Notermann
The tech had said excuse me. I’ll be back in just a bit.
I lay there with my hand in God’s, and hoped this wasn’t it.
A man walked in “to take a look” and it was then I knew
That this cancer that I feared, was now in my life too.
“OH GOD! WHY ME? I’m so not brave.”
I screamed inside my brain.
My family, my life, came rushing by –
Like a loud and speeding train.
I turned to God, still holding tight the hand that held to mine.
And then the Lord did answer; His answer was sublime.
“WHY NOT?” He said - as he still held tightly to my hand.
“I’ll never let you go! See there are my footprints in the sand.”
And together we did walk through those next two busy years.
He gave me a special doctor. A doctor without fears.
I listened and followed the doctor. His smile was warming to see.
He and the staff at that clinic, were smiling always at me.
And soon came the words I had prayed for, the words that filled me with glee.
“You Carol are a “survivor”. All tests show you’re still cancer free.”
I smiled and I laughed and I hugged, this doctor who God blessed with skill.
There are no good words to thank him, but I know in prayer that I will.
Then my mind went to the others, the ones who fought till the end.
They fought quietly, valiantly - then went home to the Lord in the end.
“OH GOD! WHY ME?” Why have I been so blessed? Why me?
“WHY NOT?” was His simple response, and His Glory was all I could see.