• Guilt

    Asked by Tinya on Friday, January 24, 2014

    Guilt

    My sister has CLL AND I feel guilty, my sister has cancer not me, yet I feel so horribly lost right now, I wish I could be with her all the time, I wish I lived closer. I don't want to place my sadness on her, so I haven't told her how scared I am that her life has been shortened. I realize we al only have the moment we live in, but with her medical problems and now cancer I feel like I am going to loose her sooner than anyone thinks, I just don't feel hopeful about this situation. It's hurts so bad the emotional pain and fear is almost unbearable.

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    • Tinya's Avatar
      Tinya

      I will take much of the advice you all have given me and like I said yesterday, I am very grateful for the input. I am just really afraid and have no control over the outcome. Next weekend I am planning to spend time with my sissy, that's if she feeling up to it... This is weird though because no matter what the big "C" is always looming.

      about 6 years ago
    • CAS1's Avatar
      CAS1

      Tinya, just remeber NONE of us get out of this World ALIVE. Death is always looming for all of us.
      I hope this can keep everything in perspective for you but remeber you are still in shock and so is your sister. Give youself PERMISSION to go easy on yourself.

      about 6 years ago
    • CakeLady's Avatar
      CakeLady

      Just reach out to her when you can without breaking down and let her know you love her. She likely understands but I felt hurt when my sister didn't call as often to cheer me up or say I am thinking of you. I know that they were busy and working when I was trying to make it though the days of chemo and when I did get to see them they were able to see that I was still the same person just living with a terrible new condition. Be strong she is likely feeling lost too and may help you through it too.

      about 6 years ago

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