• I will entitle this fear!

    Asked by Kathy on Tuesday, March 5, 2013

    I will entitle this fear!

    This isn't really a question but more a comment. I enjoyed so much the month of Feb with no medical issues. Now in March, next week I am getting the port in my abdomen out and I also will be getting blood tests to make sure the big C is staying away. The emotions can be a roller coaster ride. I'm scared to have to deal with this and I do know its a life long sentence. I do see a social worker but wanted to share with you here because I know a lot of you will understand. Thanks for your empathy.

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    • little_fut's Avatar
      little_fut

      I can't relate but I can send you a hug.......

      over 3 years ago
    • little_fut's Avatar
      little_fut

      I do know the waiting is the worst part. Since I am in the early stages of this terrible journey, again all I can do is pray and send hugs.

      over 3 years ago
    • Peroll's Avatar
      Peroll

      Kathy as the song says "The waiting is the hardest part". I just tell everybody that I hold my breath between tests and getting the results. I really don't but that time period is always a little on edge wondering what will or won't show up. Congratulations on getting the port out it is a step towards a more normal life if life can be normal after cancer. We are all praying that your tests come back fine. Good Luck!!!

      over 3 years ago
    • Ydnar2xer's Avatar
      Ydnar2xer

      Am sending good MOJO your way, Kathy!

      over 3 years ago
    • gwendolyn's Avatar
      gwendolyn

      Tests for the big C cause a ton of anxiety, no doubt. I had my first post-diagnosis mammogram this week and I was a nervous to the point of feeling physically ill for about 24 hours beforehand. I'm told this gets easier as time (years?) go by and I hope that's true.

      over 3 years ago
    • SpunkyS's Avatar
      SpunkyS

      and may you know peace between the roller coaster rides. Hopefully the rollercoaster rides will turn into nice train rides through beautiful landscapes.

      over 3 years ago
    • Kathy's Avatar
      Kathy

      Thank you for all of your kind responses. It is the greatest comfort to not feel alone. I love thinking of the roller coaster ride turning into a nice train journey.

      over 3 years ago
    • SueRae1's Avatar
      SueRae1

      Hugs - yep cancer is an emotional roller coaster. I am glad that you are seeing someone to talk about the issues. I am doing that as well, it really has helped me deal with day to day stuff. I am also taking anti-anxiety meds, mostly because of the steroids, but I decided that I needed more then talking to help keep me on an even keel and functioning.

      Congrats on getting the port removed.

      over 3 years ago
    • c25862's Avatar
      c25862

      Hi Kathy, I understand what u are going through. Yes it is very scary but there are people out there who know what u are going thru and are willing to listen. I'm scared since just 5 days ago I was told I may never go into remission again. I'm glad u found this website. We are all here if u need to talk

      over 3 years ago
    • Carol-Charlie's Avatar
      Carol-Charlie

      I don't know if you can feel my cyber hand holding yours... but I am. Seven years out of where you are. Still cancer free. I totally have been where you are. First thing (I suggest) is that you no longer capitalize the c... Don't give it any power. Give the power of prayer and thanksgiving over that little c. About 5 years out the PA said... I see something I want to do a biopsy... Terror welled in my throat... by chest constricted, I sware, I almost stopped breathing... But I knew He had hold of my hand. She snipped out the offending whatever... and started appologizing... She said they'd send it to biopsy... but she could see she'd been wrong. I just want to tell you that each of these experiences give less and less power of "C" to your life. start by referring to it as lower case c or "little c" Its onloy symbolic... but it worked for me. I'm praying for you!!!

      over 3 years ago
    • derbygirl's Avatar
      derbygirl

      I know exactly what you mean. When I had to start getting tested every 3 months, I would freak out until I got the results. It got so bad that I had no appetite and hated being around other people. I just shut down until I got the results. My family marked it on the calendar so they knew what days to avoid me because they knew I'd be stressed out. Believe me you aren't alone worrying about the test results and never will be. I've decided that I make a day of it when I go for my blood work. I get the test, then I have a light lunch and either go shopping or to a movie. I make it a "ME Day." That way I have something pleasant to remember the day by instead of being about my tests. Sending you lots of good wishes and hugs!!!!!!!! Take care!

      over 3 years ago

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