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    LAST CHEMO. DAY!!!.... How did you feel on that day?

    Asked by Mel on Tuesday, November 27, 2012

    LAST CHEMO. DAY!!!....
    How did you feel on that day?

    After 6 months I am glad this day hit and yet unsure how I feel. Sense of scared and bit sad, like being set out into the world and unsure what to do and what will happen... :(

    27 Answers from the Community

    27 answers
    • ticklingcancer's Avatar
      ticklingcancer

      This was a great day for me. Texas Oncology even gave me a t-shirt. I got pretty sick during chemo. Lost around 50 pounds in just 12 weeks. It was rough so I was super excited to be done. The keep a pretty tight leash on me. I have a chest x-ray every 2 months and blood work every 3 months. Congratulations on being done!!

      over 2 years ago
    • GregP_WN's Avatar
      GregP_WN

      Words are hard to find for how I felt. Emmotional, happy, sick, hopeful, and most of all, ready to get on with LIFE!!

      Good question Mel.

      Greg P

      over 2 years ago
    • Debbie's Avatar
      Debbie

      Mel - my last chemo was yesterday. Going for that wonderful nuelasta shot this afternoon. Meeting with the radiologist Dec. 12. Need to schedule port removal. I guess I'm trying to say even tho' the chemo is over, seems like there is much more to do to kick this disease in the butt. But I know all this other "stuff" is going to be a walk in the park compared to 6 hour chemo days! Congrats and good luck. Bald Debbie

      over 2 years ago
    • Harry's Avatar
      Harry

      For me, it was unexpected. The treatment sent me into shock. After I recovered from that, I spent a couple of months looking for treatment alternatives. Then, the blood work showed that I had dropped back into the "Watchful Waiting" range and I was no longer symptomatic. So, I'm just waiting for a return (18 months and counting) and keeping an eye out for new treatments.

      over 2 years ago
    • Nancebeth's Avatar
      Nancebeth

      I was relieved it was over but scared too, because while I was on chemo, it felt like the chemo was killing my cancer. Now that it was done, would I still be fighting it?
      My oncology nurse decorated my iv pole and an anonymous friend sent flowesr to the infusion center. My friend dropped by with a smoothie and a giant balloon. I definitely felt like celebrating.
      After I got my scans back and they showed NED, I was beyond thrilled.
      I had booked a trip 2 weeks aout from my last chemo as my end of chemo celebration and when my chemo was delayed one week, I was concerned about that trip, but I did it. 4 days of running around Chicago. Exhasuting but worth it.

      over 2 years ago
    • Peroll's Avatar
      Peroll

      Two of my last chemo days after prevenative chemo to increase the chances that my cancer woud not return so I was hopeful that it was all over and I coud get back to a normal life. The other two were per surgery so I knew that there would likely be more chemo after surgery to insure that it was all gone. My best advice is to thank the infusion staff for thier treatment buttell them you never want to need thier services again. I suspect that they like to see graduates that never need to come back. And the get on with your life, you like all of us have better things to do with our time than get chemo. Good luck!!!!!

      over 2 years ago
    • packerbacker's Avatar
      packerbacker

      Try to enjoy the extra freedom you have! What did you do with the time before that ended-up being spent on chemo treatments before? They continue to follow you, so they are always available. But really, treat yourself for reaching such a milestone! Congratulations!

      over 2 years ago
    • mtolady's Avatar
      mtolady

      CONGRADULATIONS!!!!!! I was happy to be done then had rads to do a month,but done w/ them and moving on with life....GOOD LUCK SIDNEY!!!!!

      over 2 years ago
    • SpunkyS's Avatar
      SpunkyS

      Congratulations!
      I was teary happy. We have a little ceremony of bell ringing when chemo or radiation is finished. Almost ripped the bell off the wall. But eager and nervous too because I was now on my own between post chemo follow up.

      over 2 years ago
    • nancyjac's Avatar
      nancyjac

      Knowing my exact schedule during chemo was very helpful for me. I know when I would feel good, when I would feel bad, and when it was over. After my last chemo treatment the chemo center nurses did a little cheer, through confetti, took pictures, and gave me a certificate and card. It was a milestone, but I still had a week of side effects to suffer through after that chemo treatment. It was after that week that I celebrated. It was a fairly short lived celebration though because right after I had another round of scans and pre-surgical appointments, so it was on to the next phase.

      over 2 years ago
    • RMR's Avatar
      RMR

      Wow - I have not thought about this for a while. My last chemo was September 15, 2011. I wrote about it in my journal. I remember being totally pumped up - excited about kicking cancer's but! I wrote in my journal about my chemo playlist which of course included some choral music from a Sept 11th community concert that I sang in and of course my fighting music Linkin Park. So I remember feeling like a cancer warrior - very upbeat and happy to be done! I remember afterwards, especially after the Nuelasta shot the next day, I felt pretty sick - but I knew it was the last treatment. I knew it would pass and I knew I could eventually get on with my remaining reconstructive surgeries. Congrats to all who are done!

      over 2 years ago
    • karen1956's Avatar
      karen1956

      Congrats on finishing chemo!!!! I think I was still on autopilot at that point in time....finished chemo and then 3 weeks later started rads......

      over 2 years ago
    • JennyMiller's Avatar
      JennyMiller

      I had counted the days to that last chemo with great anticipation. I can remember watching the last few drops leaving that bag to enter my body. I was thrilled to have them "unhook" me. There were a few tears as I was hugged by the infusion nurses -- "my new family in the cancer world". I was weak but I chose to walk out of the center instead of a wheel chair. Due to construction it is a maze of hallways, elevators and tunnels from the main lobby of the hospital to the Center. I had some mixed feelings about "laying down" that weapon -- but I would be picking up a new weapon when Radiation started a couple of weeks later. Since I was still in that "twilight zone" and somewhat numb --- it seemed that family & friends were more excited than me -- maybe because they saw it as some sort of closure where it was just the beginning for me -- just one more hurdle completed with more to go. Congratulations to you -- it is behind you and you can now move forward!!!

      over 2 years ago
    • tombo's Avatar
      tombo

      isnt that weird,,i too felt the same way,,but it took about a week,,i think its because we really appreciate the people trying to save our lives,,and then,,after 6 months,,off we go,,,dont worry Mel,,you will be just fine,,well for me,,i am back to chemo evry 3 weeks,,and i HATE it,,but ohh well,,i am still alive,,i like tickling cancer got pretty sick,,soooo i was happy also,,and i do get pretty sick after the chemo i have every 3 weeks,,anyhow Mel,,,go conquer the world,,go have fun,,have a great rest of your life!!!

      over 2 years ago
    • tombo's Avatar
      tombo

      just so everyone knows,,i really cant spell anymore,,and i lose my train of thought pretty fast,,,hahaha,,i kind of feel stupid when i read others responces,,because i cant ariculate what i want to say,,its really not a big deal to me,,i just get frustrated often,,and i dont know how to navigate this websight ot ask a question,,or i get to frustrated,,i am not having a good day,,my 3 week chemo is coming this friday,,and i really hate it,,and that nuelasta stuff hurts reallly bad,,and the moraphine hardly works...ok,,i got that out,,,bye,,,my name is mike by the way

      over 2 years ago
    • fastdog's Avatar
      fastdog

      I wasn't sure when my last chemo day came. I had had a total hysterectomy last Dec., and needed to have HIPEC surgery after I'd had enough recovery time. So, chemo was ordered during the interim, although the theory is that chemo won't do much, if anything, for my kind of cancer. Came the day the surgeon determined I was ready for HIPEC, and I was told I had to be off chemo for 6 weeks or so before they could operate. So, my last chemo was kind of anticlimactic, because we didn't know for sure at the time that it was the last, and I hadn't quite completed the usual course. As it turned out during the surgery, the chemo did shrink the tumor. When I found out chemo was done, I, too, felt sort of adrift, worrying that the cancer would march all over the place without it. (Back to that fear topic again.) I expect part of that feeling is that we feel proactive, like we are "doing something" when we are on the chemo schedule, and when that ends, there is quite a feeling of let-down.

      p.s. Mike - you do just fine at articulating. :-)

      over 2 years ago
    • Schlegel's Avatar
      Schlegel

      After you finish that last chemo bag, the nurses at our center sing "For she's a jolly good fellow." I told them, "But I'm not a fellow." Then they give you a certificate of completion.
      But it was not the end for me. My type of cancer will come back, so I did not have to deal with saying good-bye permanently.

      over 2 years ago
    • mcowett's Avatar
      mcowett

      This Thursday is my last chemo, I woke up in tears and full of anxienty on Tuesday! I journaled and meditated then said what the heck and popped another ativan. I asked my
      "reach to recovery" mentor what she thought the tears were about and she said "girl you are tired and done with this major inconvience" plus their may be some menopause stuff going on as well, which you haven't even begone to look at that yet. The emotions of fear (of the next step; radiation), loneliness, relief, and others are all ontop of the CHEMO you are still receiving and will have to go through. I told her I am tired, I know I am a worrier, I am just battle weary. I think that is what the tears were about. The celebration day will come in about 10 days AFTER receiving the last chemo.

      over 2 years ago
    • mgm48's Avatar
      mgm48

      I'm so different than most. For me chemo was easy and it was working to reduce my PSA. So, when they said stop, I said why? When they explained, I understood but felt like I was giving up, doing nothing, waiting for the cancer to grow. As I recall I was even a little angry. Now I realize that it just couldn't go on forever and we're moving on to something new that just might help. This cancer thing is a mean son of a b*tch and sometimes we just have to keep moving forward to keep ahead of it. I intend to keep fighting with any weapon they give me. I realize that my cancer is not currently curable so I'm all about being around for when they find a cure. Bring on the trials.

      Keep it positive and smile :)

      over 2 years ago
    • Harry's Avatar
      Harry

      mgm48,

      I know what you mean. WM is also incurable. Which doesn't mean you can't live with it. Anyway, after my unexpected end to chemo I went to an "Education Forum" put on by the IWMF (WM is a rare cancer, but the foundation is excellent and active). I wanted to learn about treatment alternatives. There was some very encouraging news on that front. Anyway, one of the things the researchers that we listened to emphasized was that not treating WM was the best approach where possible. You can't cure it and there are diminishing returns--even dangers--in treating it. So, when my doctor said that I was in that "happy" state I was prepared.

      I think I must be a warrior by temperment. My given name was the name Shakespeare used for his most heroic warrior king and my surname means warrior in a convoluted, very Irish, way. Not fighting this isn't in my blood, but I hope I know when to wait and fight again.

      over 2 years ago
    • liznparadise's Avatar
      liznparadise

      Felt great on last chemo day, but had one more week of radiation after. Last day of radiation I received a beautiful quilt donated by the local quilting society, then went into the hospital for 10 days for effects of the chemo. All is well so far since.

      over 2 years ago
    • gwendolyn's Avatar
      gwendolyn

      My last day of chemo is tomorrow. I'm mainly feeling terrified about starting radiation.

      I will continue to receive Herceptin infusions every 3 weeks so I won't have to say goodbye to all the friendly nurses at the infusion center for another 8 months or so.

      over 2 years ago
    • Snooks' Avatar
      Snooks

      Ecstatic!!! In fact, after my previous treatments, I was sick the first week, better the second week then felt really good on the third week only to start over the next week with another treatment. Maybe it was my mind set that it was finally over, because after my last treatment, i set out on vacation and never felt better. Congratulations, you are now one of us "survivors". God Bless.

      over 2 years ago
    • ScrapbookerKay's Avatar
      ScrapbookerKay

      They told me when my scheduled treatments would be, provided the count didn't get too low and things get postponed. I made a calendar and cut out those cancer ribbons in lime green (lymphoma's color) and after each treatment I put a ribbon on the calendar. That calendar is now in my green scrapbook with all my notes and hints....just in case someone else gets this awful disease and asks me a question. I can refer to my book, since I can't remember everything. I was thrilled for the chemo to be over, but get very anxious when it's time for a scan...like waiting for the other shoe to drop. Good Luck and enjoy your holidays.

      over 2 years ago
    • Anita's Avatar
      Anita

      I know that feeling! my last chemo day, I could hardly believe that I would not have to go back. that now I would start feeling better,(slowly) but better.I was scared to, that if I didnt just keep going that the cancer would just come back.
      I now have my hair back, my muscles are getting stronger all the time. I have joined a small gym close to my house.My last chemo was July 29th 2011. Loving life. Still under doctors care,and I wont lie, even tho I am not in active treatment now. I still get scared if I get a pain or dont feel good.. the feeling goes away faster, faster as time goes on.
      So very happy you have done your last chemo too. Will keep you in my prayers

      over 2 years ago
    • WonderKitty's Avatar
      WonderKitty

      Oh man. Last chemo day! It was great to know that I didnt have to do this again. That I could go home and not come back (well, except that I got neulasta shots, so I had to come back the next day) and just recover. It was such a sense of relief. But I had a connection with some of the nurses and staff at the cancer center, and it was sad to think that I had no reason to see them again. And now when I go back for follow-ups, they dont really remember me. I promise it will not take long to get back into the swing of a "normal" life. Just do the things you want to do, follow your doctors orders, and enjoy the holiday season!

      over 2 years ago
    • jang's Avatar
      jang

      It was a great feeling but I cried--I guess I couldn't believe I made it through Sense of being scared I wasn't going to see Dr. every week to reassure me I was doing fine.

      about 2 years ago

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