I think you need to take some time to process this asap. You are obviously much more affected by this than you think you should be. Find someone to speak too, preferably a shrink you don't know. You are sort of in a situation like a dr trying to be their own patient.
Cervical Cancer Questions
nervous nellie / scared sam ?
Asked by tracimf61 on Wednesday, March 13, 2013
nervous nellie / scared sam ?
As an S.T.N.A. I have seen many types of Cancer. I have helped many on to the next journey of life. I have spoke with co-workers who are survivours. Yet I can't get my last resident out of my mind. She suffered so..and now..I'm scared, but I'm not. Wish i could put my finger on things.
Is this normal?
I keep telling myself "I DON'T have time for Cancer, or to be scared, or to worry.. I have T-shirts to make for 'Race For The Cure', for Friends & Family who are Breast Cancer Survivors."
Was told I had Cervical Cancer on the 6th, told i could go back to work on the 7th. worked 7th, 8th, & 9th. 10th was with my mom. work on 11th &12th. today March 13th, is the first day i could try & procces this... not doing to good.
5 Answers from the Community
I think it is a very normal reaction and you don't have to be in the medical field to have it. My first reaction was anger...this was not in plans, I didn't have time for it, etc. That is a different response from hoping if you ignore it, it will go away (denial). But some times others (or I guess even ourselves) have a hard time seeing the difference between anger and denial. The first time I had cancer (20 years ago) my friends were convinced I was in denial because I didn't fall apart and cry all the time and feel self pity. I wasn't denying it, I was angry with it, which served me well. It was what kept me going and able to deal with the disruption and still move forward with treatment.
My name is Carm and I am an oncology nurse that specializes in gyne cancers. Welcome to the "What Next" family. If you have any questions or concerns that you feel I might be able to help you with, please do not hesitate to ask. There are many excellent people here always willing to help in any way with the latest information or experiences to share. You are among friends; there are no strangers here. I hope you find all the information and support you seek .
Both feelings are normal. I was diagnosed late afternoon on Feb. 1st which was a Friday. I had the weekend to dwell on my diagnosis and waiting on a call to get in quickly to set an appointment see a gyne oncologist. I have been through many emotions. One week after my cervical cancer diagnosis I had a breast cancer scare and I was a nervous wreck! Thank goodness my path results came back neg for that cancer but I was scared to death because I have seen cancer too much in my family - mother had breast cancer (I am the same age as she was when she was diagnosed), my grandmother had cervical cancer and my other grandmother had lung and brain cancer. Even though I had my days of crying or being angry or in shock, I always kept thinking how strong the women in my family was during their treatments to survive. I was fortunate to have a great circle of family and friends to support me and made sure I fight to survive. I know you keep thinking about your last resident and scared but not scared. Nothing wrong with that because you will learn like myself and others that everyone has similar and different ways to deal with their own cancer. I wish you the best of luck.
I am a neophyte in this cancer business, it has all happened to me in the last month and a half. The way I see this, we are going to war. We can hide, get angry, beseech the help from God, deny, allow our brains to terrorize us, but in the end we have to fight. Step back and plan your attack, fight like XXX, this is not a battle you want to lose. May your heart and mind be at peace.