• Sharing my strange days

    Asked by little_fut on Tuesday, April 2, 2013

    Sharing my strange days

    I'm begining to feel as though there are too many hours in a day, yet the weeks seem to fly by. My days are so unlike they were only a few months ago, I went from being extremely active to just sitting around watching TV. When I look at my regular day, I feel like It's never going to end, yet at the end of the week, I say...wow, it's Friday already? I think I should be doing more each day....sometimes I feel like all I'm doing is waiting, but for what? I don't know if this makes any sense to anyone, but if it does, please tell me this too shall pass...I'm on stand-by, maybe I'm just going nuts...I know in another week, my life is changing again....maybe I'm nesting? you know like pregnant women who get their minds ready for the birth...maybe I'm nesting getting ready for my treatments??? Whatever it is, I feel useless. I feel BLAH on the inside alot of the time, while I appear cheerful on the outside. I will stop rambling. Thanks for listening.

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    • Peroll's Avatar

      Your reaction is typical for new cancer patients, a lot of us fel that way at the begining not really knowing what to do or how to do it. We all have to learn about what is happening and how we are supposed to react. It is sort of like the stages of grief, a phase we tend to go through. The best thing I can recommend is to try and do as much of what you use to do as you can. It is sort of a way to stop the cancer from taking so much of your life from you. And if there are some importat things you can't do anymore then find things that you can do to substitue for them. Daytime TV is a terrible thing to waste your time on. I found that I could only watch it for about 10 minutes before I got sick of it and had to turn it off. Judge Judy and Jerry Springer are just to stupid for me to watch that long. Good Luck

      over 3 years ago
    • Kathy's Avatar

      I JUST thought to myself before I got on here that wow this day is going fast and I quickly had the memory of when the days would drag by so slow. It does help to stay somewhat active I think. Maybe you can't do tons of laundry but maybe you can do one load of towels. I kind of fought it during those tiring chemo days and disliked laying around. Maybe there's an easy craft you can enjoy. When I was up for it I did some crosstitching but there again a very easy pattern. I could not wait to get those chemo days behind me. Maybe you can find some easy TV to watch just to pass the day. I don't think you are crazy, because if you are then so am I!!!
      I also liked word search puzzles and playing solitaire on my iPhone. Take good care now.

      over 3 years ago
    • BuckeyeShelby's Avatar

      I understand completely. When I was off work after my hysterectomy, I felt like a slug. I wanted to go to back to work. I felt fine. Then I'd do something like laundry or grocery shopping, and I KNEW why I had to wait 6 weeks to go back to work, 'cause I needed a nap. Badly! And it was the same way during part of treatment. On the weekends right after my chemo, I'd do little more than nap. And hope I felt good enough to go back to work on Monday. I ended up watching a lot more late night than daytime tv. It does get better. I completed chemo in January, and I feel like I'm starting to get my life back together. People say you have to get used to the new "normal". I'm still getting used to it. Good luck; it will get better. PS -- ramble all you want.

      over 3 years ago
    • nancyjac's Avatar

      It will pass when you make it pass. Why are you on standby? All of our lives change every day....every minute. Sitting around watching TV is not nesting or getting ready for anything. Nothing has left your life, everything that was in your life before is still there with one more thing added. So go back to be extremely active in whatever your were extremely active with before.

      over 3 years ago
    • fastdog's Avatar

      It is similar to nesting. Good way of putting it. You're adjusting to the "new normal," both physically and mentally. It's a LOT to take in, on all levels. Allow your body and mind to rest and process it all, and do what you can. Don't beat yourself up if you don't feel like doing everything you used to do, it will all come together when it's meant to. Maybe instead of watching tv, you can read or get some college courses on cd or dvd. I got some of those when they were on sale, just subjects I'm interested in, and I'm really glad I did. No pressure, you just learn at your own pace. Don't think of yourself as useless. You're not. It's a lot to deal with, and you are taking it all in and learning to deal with it, on many levels.

      over 3 years ago
    • Ydnar2xer's Avatar

      I would suggest you make time NOW to do things you might not feel like doing during chemo: lots of exercise, walking, etc., meeting friends for lunch, going to movies, taking on a small home project (ie, clean your closet), etc. Keeping physically busy will probably make you much happier than just sitting in front of the tv, waiting for "DOOMSDAY"!

      Pack your "chemo bag" full of the things you might want to have on hand during your infusions. Put it in your hall closet, ready to go. I found I felt a lot more prepared mentally for chemo when I had my chemo bag ready.

      Lastly, know that YOU CAN DO CHEMO~! Thousands of us have walked this path before you. Yes, it is scary and kind of creepy--but it is the best way we have today of treating your cancer. You WANT chemo to rid you of your cancer, so you MUST do chemo. Believe me, you are capable. And after it is all behind you, you will marvel at your strength! My thoughts are with you; good luck! :-)

      over 3 years ago
    • ddkk3's Avatar

      This is how I'm feeling as well. I took the semester off of school so I really have no actual responsibilities. I do have a textbook that I should be studying for my future classes but I haven't come around to it yet. I've been pretty much watching too much tv all day. It would probably be more beneficial to both of us to find something productive to do; maybe volunteering somewhere?

      over 3 years ago
    • bbay65's Avatar
      bbay65 (Best Answer!)

      You put into words what I've been feeling. On top of the cancer I had a cardio problem 6 months ago. They won't let me drive and my husband has returned to work and the kids are in school. I think my dog is getting tired of me. Now that the weather is finally spring-like I'm hoping my mood will improve. I also try to accomplish some task that has been put off. Going thru pics, cleaning a closet ect. It has been great getting things done and I feel better at the end of the day that my time wasn't wasted. Never stop rambling it is the best therapy. (ask my dog).

      over 3 years ago
    • JennyMiller's Avatar

      Actually, I think you may feel that you are not actively involved in your battle -- as you say, you are on standby. However, once you start treatment, you will be putting on your armor, picking up your weapons and going to battle -- you will become focused on fighting this evil and elusive enemy. You will find strength that you did not know you had -- and it will foster a "positive attitude" which is so important on your journey. Meanwhile, you can prepare for this phase of your life -- set up the basket of aids you may need for chemo effects (thermometer, tylenol, biotene mouth rinse, Oral Jel throat rinse, etc.) for home -- and prepare a tote bag to take with you to chemo (books, etc). You could take a few minutes to organize that closet or drawer so that it doesn't bother you when you are going through chemo. You will soon have it all behind you -- be assured there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I wish you the best!

      over 3 years ago
    • Beannie's Avatar

      Have felt the same - during treatment from one procedure to the next, and then followup testing to move to next stage only to have to go back for more procedure. I thought I would be finished initially with active radiation treatment by mid Jan this year but I just finished last week. So, sometimes delays or unexpected events occur - just try to keep your mind occupied and hang in there!

      over 3 years ago
    • dls1007's Avatar

      Agree Peroll. There were so many things I couldn't do because of my cancer, I found myself sitting at home in front of the TV constantly. You need to pick yourself up and say, so what can I do and get out and stay busy. You don't want to stay coopted up in your house all by yourself. I found the best thing for me is to stay to my regular routine as much as I can. Of course if you are recooperating from surgery you may have to stay at home, but once you can get back to you normal life, get out and enjoy!

      over 3 years ago
    • derbygirl's Avatar

      I know exactly how you feel. My hysterectomy came 3 weeks after having a laparoscopy so I was healing from 2 surgeries at the same time. My doctor kept telling me to listen to my body and if I was tired, then I was to take a nap. I got tired of sleeping, if that's even possible. I think I went through every movie I own, and that's a lot, I gave up watching TV because if it wasn't infomercials it was repeats. I love horse racing so I was grateful I had that to watch but I still was bored just sitting around. I couldn't even take my dog for a walk because I was so sore. I think the only thing I did enjoy was not having to do laundry or cook dinner or other household chores. Trust me, it gets better. Just don't rush things. Give yourself time to heal and before you know it, you'll be back to your regular self and enjoying life again. Take care.

      over 3 years ago

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