Proud of you for getting strong. You can do this, and there are a ton of people here that will help you. At anytime you need help, just ask and someone will usually lift you up.
Go get em, and show this cancer who's boss.
Thank you all so much
Thanks to all your responses.
This morning I got up and decided I wanted to LIVE. For today I will not sit around crying. I showered, got dressed and my husband and I went outside to enjoy this glorious day. For today I feel optimistic and that is thanks to all of you. I didn't think I would feel like this ever again when I walked out of the doctor's office last Thursday. How will I feel tomorrow? I don't know. I will have to take it one day at a time. Hopefully I will have my next appointment soon so we can get the treatment started and my husband and I can drive home and be in our own 4 walls and among our friends. I'm also hoping to be able to go back to work and if not, I plan to do volunteer work. I haven't worked since August and my employer is holding a job for me. I need to have to get up and go and have a purpose. I am asking my God to just take my hand and lead me because at this stage, I would just flounder with no clear path. I need Him and His strength, come what may.
So happy for you - my husband (who had a heart attack & brain hemorrhage when I was in the middle of chemo / radiation in May 2012), said that we need to do things that we enjoy or find purpose in, each and every day. The first step is to make the decision that you did this morning - to LIVE.
Yes, our journey often requires us to take one day at a time. Even when I didn't "feel" like it, I kept up as much as possible with my church work. It gave me purpose when I was going through treatment, and even though I couldn't do everything, I did do what I could. I still led worship (song service - I'm a musician) on most Sunday mornings and set up the computer program (laptop from home). I found that it was important for me to still feel useful in the midst of all that I was going through. In my weakest moments, God was there and was my strength. I made a decision when going through treatment, to get up each day, shower & get dressed - even when I didn't feel up to it. I kept that promise to myself each day except one, that I can remember. God is our strength - I know I could not have gone through any of this without Him.
magdem, congratulations on msking the decision to fight and live. I know how it feels to make that decsion. There will be good days and bad days but youcan and will do this. You should be able to go back to work ifyou have a desk job or one that does not require too much physical labor. I hav worked throughout my treatment including working during chemo. G ood luck and let us know when you havw more questions or need more support.