I have been there...2 years ago I was going through this exact thing with my melanoma. I tried to stay as busy as I could. IThere were so many times someone said "See you next Monday" and they were extremely hesitant to tell me what was going on!
I think it is natural for us to look for a solution and good to be our own advocate...so being an informed patient is important and researching treatments helps. I hope you have a good support system. Try to stay busy. :) blessings and prayers,