pattiep's Journey with Mixed Tumors, Breast Cancer

Told I had dense breast tissue and to wait 6 months- lump smaller than a pea. After 6 months most of breast big lumps and red nipple discharge. Told to wait 6 more more months

I chose to see a breast surgeon and had biopsies

should have expected it - but never thought it would happen to me

Still recovering (later note - fast recovery but found out I needed chemo unexpectedly)

was told day after surgery that everything was great and I wouldn't need further treatment

breast

Just started -expanders

But was it really?? Her2neu(?) considered very high for size of invasive tumors

start next week- terrified since they said it will be painful Later note - not painful. Fatigue unreal. Some bone pain. Stayed on couch the entire time

had Pagets, luckily had entire breast removed. Invasive tumors found in post surgery pathology. I was stunned and need chemo

Hurts way more than I expected

starting next week TCH, H, H for 18 weeks followed by year of just Herceptin

Control. Worried about work. Worried about money. It is vain but I don't want to lose my hair or stop having my nails done. I had a great attitude about my mastectomy - very upbeat, alot of jokes, really don't mind losing the breast. Cannot deal with the chemo. The side effects horrify me. I don't know if I should try to work. All I can do is cry. Went for "chemo counseling" today and I wish I didn't. I'd rather I just found out as I went a long.

tear ducts, dry eye, corneas, eyelashes growing inwards

2 eye operations Sept 2013 and Oct. 2014. First one easy peasy. Last one difficult. Tired and eyes stitched, bruised face -feel like a mess

Had bad moments in the past but now everything is actually going well (with cancer issues) and I feel so very down. The chemo side effects just seem never ending. I don't know if I would have agreed to taxotere if I knew all of these things would happen to my eyes. Feel like I have to keep a stiff upper lip- after all I was pretty upbeat during the "bad" parts so now I should be happy! Except...

Dry eye, blepharitis, lashes growing wrong direction, procedures to force lashes correct was a fail. Stents in tear ducts have closed over

Freaking out about eye surgery. Another anesthesia event. I hate it! I am pretty sure my eyes will be uncomfortable and unattractive forever. And I will be giving school conferences with black eyes again. Parents are never going to believe I'm not a victim of domestic violence (maybe I have some sense of humor left)

Having surgery on 2/12. New stents in eyes to force open tear ducts. Grafting skin from cheek to eyelid to keep backwards lashes from touching eye. Going to be a long 3 months of block ducts while stents work = tears running down my face like right after chemo. Taxotere I hate what you've done to my eyes.