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    Milestones: I just realized I've been on Anastrozle for two years now. Only three more years left, it's the last phase of my chemotherapy.
    Yea!!!

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    It was October of 2010 when I found the lump on my breast. I did not want to believe what I already sensed to be true-even before the doctors told me. I knew I had cancer and I was scared. An ultrasound and a mammogram confirmed what I already knew to be true. As I type this in my hands shake- I shake because even two years I find this part of my life difficult to discuss. I cry as I type. Having
    cancer is so scarey and so painful. One day your whole and the next day u wake up with a part of u gone. A part of me had died. I was still here- I had a fighting chance, but still, a part of me had died. My poor breast was gone- it had died and I mourned for it. A hideous scar had was left in its place and I felt hideous and I looked hideous. I wanted my breast back. Do I sound vain- I don't think so. Do I sound ungrateful- yes- many women have succumbed to cancer. I was given a chance to fight. I underwent chemo after the Christmas holidays. I shake when I remember those big needles n what was going through my veins. As I walked into the chemo room my knees shook and I remember thinking"dead man walking". I didn't know if I was going to make it through this. I prayed I did for the sake of my beloved husband, my children and the rest of my family. I prayed to god as I had never prayed before. I asked for his forgiveness and another chance at life. I asked for strength so I could help my my husband n my children to be strong. It was not over- I was not over-I was here and we were still together. Unity- I always want my children to stick together and face whatever life throws at them together- as a family. I could not have made it through without them. I have probably digressed, but, this is what and how I feel and I write how feel. My body has healed, but, the emotional scars are still there. I'm on the cancer pill now, will be on it for five years. They will pass and hopefully so will the emotional pain. To all the women who are out there fighting breast cancer, my heart goes out to you and may God bless you!

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    Celebration (Finished treatment)

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    Loss (Body part/function)

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    Side Effects (Taste change/loss)

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    Side Effects (Hot flashes): The worst