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    Other Care (Psychosocial): i see a doctor about how i feel now that i have no breasts and live on pain meds a patch that delivers 75 mg of fentanal in everythree hours for the neurophy in my legs and have to eat up to 5 endocets also for break through pain ,sometimes i feel as though i have a life sentence and some timesi am ok with it . thats my story.

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      I have had the same experience some days I am ok with not having breasts and some days not. A lot of pain today is horrible so much to do and hurting terribly. I try to meditate and remember what my therapist said NEVER feel guilty because of what your body can or cannot do after treatment. Healing hugs

      almost 4 years ago
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    Loss (Body part/function): isince the lumpectomy i always had it on my mind that i lived month by month, it consumed my thoughts and i coulnt live with it any more my blood tests were coming back with higher levels and my doctor said it was from being around people that smoked, but that wasnt it cause i didnt change anything that i did before so i went to another cancer surgen and asked him what would be my chances for reacurrance and he told me around 80% i worried all the time it consumed my thoughts i didnt want to go through all that stuff again so on december 13th i had a double mascetomy and i wish i would have not been in such shock and i would have had that the firsrt time ,the radiation burned my skin so bad that i can never recieve reconstruction on my breasts i feel ugly and i get grabbing pains on the left breat area i dont know what the future brings for me i live day by day.

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    Loss (Relationship ): since august 22nd 2007 my husband has not kissed huged or even atempted to make love to me i feel like a freak and a deformed person that he really dont want anymore.i lost him and coulnt get any help from social security cause i had lost my creadits from working because i was off 2 years prior having rotorcuff surgurys so i was not entiled to any help not enough working creadits. we were having a hard time trying to pay our bills and i was getting very sad.

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    Side Effects (Nerve damage (peripheral neuropathy)): i started having bad pain in my legs and i told the doctor this and they just blew it off like i was making this up i not only experienced that i had memory changes,fatique,hot flashes since they forced mein to menopouse thinking problems weight gain because it seemed all i really heard was dont not eat ,keep eating keep your strenght up,pain in my legs was the worst,i got a rash on my breast and under my arms that drove me nuts i just scrached all the time i coulnt help it, lost my hair.

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    Drug or Chemo Therapy (Chemotherapy): first i had a young women show me a port that was put into her breast for the needle to go into they said it would be better then haveing being poked every day in the veins they said some get collasped veins, so i agreed to have one put in that took a liitle while to heal before i could recieved chemo treatments,i had to sit there for 5 to 6 hours every time and had a lot of diferent things pumped into my body, i was so confussed and tired and couldnt think right chemo brain, went home and slept alot, cryed alot i was confussed i started my first chemo tratment on my birthday aug 22nd 2007

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    Side Effects (Depression/Anxiety): i really didnt know what was happening to me cause i didnt feel anything ,but i was so tired. i wondered what it was really doing to me i did start noticeing that my breast was gettin g a little more brown, and started worryingm a little still not really being explained to what was happening to me i guess you can hear them explain but you really dont hear them. when i lost my hair i got really depressed i really didnt see me anymore when i looked into the mirror <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<