Sorry your not feeling well in your journey, I know it's tough. there are a lot of people here that can help you.
I noticed you posted this as an update on your homepage, that's why you haven't gotten any response from it. If you will post this as a question by clicking on the questions tab at the top of the page, you will get a lot of response from it.
Let us know if we can help with anything on the site.
Thanks for posting, hope you get to feeling better.