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    grnygole wrote on 1Gr8teacher's wall

    Thanks for your comment. I, too, tend to feel guilty for not having had to go through chemo or radiation, and feel nervous about the conclusion that my cancer is gone. Yes, I worry about every little symptom being a sign of my cancer returning or some new cancer. I don't know how long it takes to move on, but a guy at my church who has been treated for a few years with recurring cancer told me it takes about a year before the all-absorbing cancer-consciousness recedes. I've concluded finally that there's just no point in wasting time worrying about something that hasn't happened, especially when there's such a good chance it may never happen - but, easier said than done. Trying to pack in as much happiness and enjoyment as possible in each day is helping to distract me from the gloom and doom thoughts. We just have to stay positive and believe we'll be alright.

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    Hi,
    Looks like we've had pretty much the same experience. I had a D&C March 19, diagnosed with cancer March 29, 2012, Da Vinci hysterectomy April 21 and no follow-up treatment; they think they "got it all". I still attend a cancer support group at the medical center where I received my treatment, but everybody in the group has more serious cancers, nobody with stage 1 endometrial like mine. I am doing great physically - it's been three months since the surgery, but I am still dealing with psychological issues of survivorship. It does seem to be getting better, but it hasn't been real easy trying to get back to normal life. Do you feel that kind of strangeness, like where do we go from here? Taking one day at a time has been a big help, but every now and then some fear and dread descend on me, the worry over what if it comes back. The cancer experience really has changed my life quite a bit, so I deal with questions of what I believe is really worthwhile to do with the rest of my life, etc. If you have some thoughts about strategies for our situation, I would appreciate hearing them.

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      It's so refreshing to hear someone feels the same way! I almost feel like I shouldn't have these kind of thoughts because my cancer is gone, I had no treatment and I look and (physically) feel fine. I am also noticing that only cancer survivors truly understand how we feel. I have been blessed with a wonderful husband who is extremely supportive but he still just doesn't get it. He listens and is comforting when the feelings of dread or the memories come up but I get the feeling that there will be a time when he will expect me to "get over it and get on with my life." When I have shared that fear with him he seems hurt.
      I agree with you that it has changed me. I find that I am less likely to keep my mouth shut about something I feel strongly about. :) I am also a real pest to my girlfriends about early detection. I think I have single handedly increased gynecological visits in my area!
      Do you find that the slightest little ache or pain makes you paranoid?
      Im so thankful for this site--it makes me feel less crazy! you are right--One day at a time!

      about 4 years ago
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    Hi Cheryl,
    Just wanted to offer some words of encouragement and support. I got my diagnosis on March 29 of this year and had a Da Vinci hysterectomy on April 21, and the pathology report showed no cancer outside the uterus, so I was finished with treatment then. I had a pretty good recovery from the surgery, and am feeling quite well now, physically, and starting to believe I am cancer-free. It takes awhile to get over the shock of diagnosis, but I'm beginning to get on with my life. Many women survive endometrial cancer, as it is one of the cancers that is usually caught very early. I hope hearing from someone who has already been through it all successfully will cheer you some about your own treatment journey. Try to find a support group, if you can, and I recommend the website Hystersisters for great information and online support through every stage of your hysterectomy. Good luck to you, and remember there are millions of people dealing with cancer issues and survivor issues - you will not ever be alone. Try to locate the social worker at your treatment center for information on all the kinds of support that is available to help you. Wishing you well.

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    Still feeling a little shell-shocked. Just got the news yesterday that my cancer is considered gone and I need no further treatment. After weeks of trying to face up to my cancer diagnosis, surgery and the possibility of radiation or chemotherapy or worse outcomes, to try to think about returning to some sort of normal life seems strange. I am happy to be a cancer survivor, but it's still different from being a person who never had cancer, and I'm not sure quite how to be. I'm me, but changed quite a bit. Anyone else feel very odd about trying to go ahead with a new life after dealing with the threat of cancer? Do you still feel uncertain, like, is it really gone? Is that for sure? What do I do now? How long does this uneasiness last before life feels normal again?

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    Celebration (Finished treatment): After my hysterectomy, my pathology report was very good - the cancer was contained in the uterus and did not spread to lymph or other tissues. My surgeon felt no further treatment was necessary, and I am considered cancer free, and only need to have routine check-ups to be sure there is no re-occurence.