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    Gypsy wrote on annabanana's wall

    This is all so rough, so scary...hubby has throat cancer...the year has been a nightmare. Endless trips...doctors, hospitals, cancer center, tests, it seems never ending...33 radiation treatments...told it was gone, cured...that was July and it was found again Nov. Told last option surgery and still trying to get in to a surgeon to remove tumor before too late and seems every place drags their feet when time is critical..complicated..he is an amputee Vet...lost so much weight, now his leg falls off. He was also scheduled for neck and elbow surgery before cancer found...bone spurs press on his spine..headaches, nerve damage in elbow, his arm weak. He faces so much all at once, I don't know how he is functioning? We find out tomorrow results of full body scan...spread??? I am soooo terrified. This battle affects the wife of a cancer patient too, but spouses/caretakers seem forgotten a lot of times and as if we are invisible working behind scenes trying to be 12 ppl rolled into 1 and we are only human. I have days I scream my head off, pulling at my hair....it all gets to be TOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!! I have no one to talk to...they don't understand really and they go on with their own lives, caught up in decorating or whatever/...now none of that seems important...I feel like a zombie a lot and miss the hubby I used to have...he is so thin, weak, quiet, sad, sick now. I HATE CANCER. It took my stepdad, my mom, aunt, tried to take my brother and me and we fought back...remission so far. It took a LOT OF FRIENDS...I lose count there has been SO MANY. When will they ever find a cure or vaccine for all cancers? To end trail of tears! Hope to hear from a lot of ppl on here...I too need support and can give support back...we're in this together. Blessings Gypsy in Titusville FL

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    Gypsy wrote on shirley63801's wall

    Hubby, 65, Vt, amputee...9 mos ago...33 radiation treatments, didn;t work trying to find righ surgeon toremove tumor...stage 2...sigh. Tell your story. I feel so alone...no family and from Texas, live Titusville,. don't know people.

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    Hubby a vet diagnosed in April had 33 radiations, they thought it was gone, found Nov and now rounds to find surgeon to remove tumor...stage 2...Dec 27 appt at Moffitt..didn't like MD ANDERSON in Orlando, couldn't get in fast to Mayo either. Will see what happens? He is also amputee lost so muc weight, his leg falls off,l anotherr prob. We have NO FAMILY here and know so few ppl and those here we thoughtwere our friends...DESERTED US whe they found out he had cancer...bummer. Tellme your stoy nd doctors and what hospital?

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    Gypsy wrote on AmandaBL's wall

    Are u going to Moffitt? Radiation? Surgery? What doctor? My husband has throat cancer...radiation didn't work, stage 2...Dec 27 appt with surgeon Moffitt, praying they can remove tumor and not remove his voice too. He is a Vet. Wer're bikers and wow did our lives change this year. We live Titusville, from Texas.

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    Other Care (Other): No other so far but the radiation...what else can we do? Bought bags of herbal supplements, began green juicing and book on alkaline diet...says it kills cancer is very strict and long list of forbidden foods, difficult to follow, but does it WORK??? That is our hope...we need HOPE!!!!

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    Loss (My mind/Sense of Humor): I am not me any more and he is not himself. We lost our dreams, goals, ourjoy...our lives now is all about cancer, cancer, cancer, trips and appts and waiting on calls and news and results...we have NO REAL LIFE and will not have a christmas this year...we do not feel in mood at all. Plus getting broke from all this too. Feel in deep despair and disbelief. Will he died? OMG we are both terrified, cling to each other and shake hard at times. If he dies, I will have to sell out, pack up, and move...where by myself? Our govt takes a widow's SS check from her when her husband dies and she has half income to live on, but same prices to pay for everything in life...I've seen widows end up homeless. I am terrified. HE IS VERY VERY TERRIFIED. Married 18 yrs ups and downs, but nothing like this...he said losing his leg was hard, limited him so much, but even that not as scary as this cancer...we HATE CANCER!