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    Loss (Relationship ): I'm still married, but it isn't the same. My husband and I went through the grieving process a little prematurely, I think. :) He seems to have accepted that I might die from this, and has shut down emotionally.

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    Side Effects (Chemo brain): This was the worst part for me -- I have to THINK for a living, and I felt like an idiot. I couldn't make decisions, and couldn't grasp new concepts. Since I had just started a new job, and my primary role was to solve problems, I felt ashamed and frightened. It was nearly impossible for me to figure out the complexities of my role. Luckily, my new teammates supported me, and helped me every step of the way.

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    Radiation: Radiation wasn't too bad for me, other than the fact that it was 150 miles from my home. My radiated breast is a little shrunken, but other than that, I didn't have much trouble.

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    Drug or Chemo Therapy (Chemotherapy): A/C/T made me feel like a zombie. It's now been a little over a year since my chemo ended, and I don't remember much from those 6 months. During chemo, I certainly never felt that I would ever feel normal again -- but I am even better than "normal" now! Yes, I ache from the arimidex, but I am happy and peaceful most of the time. I sometimes forget that I am a "survivor."

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      It's great to hear that you feel "normal" again. I am getting ready to start chemo in about 2 weeks. I have to go in every 2 weeks with 4 cycles of A/C and 4 cycles with Taxol. Then 5 years of the hormone treatment. Lucky me!

      almost 5 years ago
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    Oh No: My daughter was 11 years old at the time of my diagnosis. I am the breadwinner in my family. In addition, I was just hired into my dream job, after years of hating my work. Now is not the time for me to go.

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