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    TerriL wrote on Marelady's wall

    I am sorry you are having such a rough time. Perhaps your doctor can prescribe something for anxiety/depression. I am just coming out of a rough year of chemo, surgery, radiation and now oral chemo. It is not an easy journey, but your state of mind can help you through. Prayers are going out to you!

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    Angelaine wrote on Marelady's wall

    Concentrate on the good in life. Sometimes nearly impossible to believe. Sometimes it is you are alive. Breathe in, breathe out. I felt locked in my house for nearly 1 year, I would get sick from others, or I would make others ill. No hair, could not eat, could not walk long, could not write, could not read, and believe me it hurt to watch tv, I felt so depressed. I am alive and better. i PRAY you get better.

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    Jouska wrote on Marelady's wall

    Marelady, there are a lot of HER2+ women here alive and kicking. Sounds like your original diagnosis and surgery (lumpectomy) were not correct. Hoping you are in good hands now. I had carboplatin, taxotere and Herceptin (not a chemo but a targeted therapy for HER2+ ) and just celebrated my fifth anniversary.

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      Marelady

      I am not happy as nothing seems to have worked but horrible surgery with lots of scars. Now I am going to go through radiation for 33 treatment with 20%chance of return in same place!!! Then have to take a horrible drug for the next 1o years that may not even do what it is designed to do. Just get horrible side effects w/no help

      3 months ago
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    Marelady shared an experience

    Loss (Body part/function): Had bilateral mastectomy, hideous scars that can't be taken away. Have pains that come and go. Feel not like a woman anymore just a lab rat

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      Suzebaron

      I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. I had reconstruction surgery immediately after my bilateral mastectomy, so I didn't get to see the scars. Reconstruction may still be an option; speak to your doctor, and he'll advise you. Good luck. The first year is most difficult physically and emotionally. Then it gets better and better. Most of the time, I forget the details of my cancer.

      3 months ago
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      PaulineJ

      Take one day at a time

      3 months ago
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      Morwen

      I am so sorry you're having to experience such misery. I'm facing possible masectomy, and I hope and pray the lumpectomy will be all I need.
      Sending healing light to you.

      3 months ago
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    Marelady shared an experience

    Side Effects (Depression/Anxiety): Have depression, no energy, pain, no strength and no hope at end of tunnel. Hair that looks no way like what I had. VERY SAD AND LONELY!!

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      MarcieB

      Marelady, I feel so bad about your hard experience. I was diagnosed in July and began chemo in August. Four rounds of AC followed by Taxol once a week for 12 weeks. It was so much harder than I thought it would be - the lower GI traumas about did me in. but, when I had the surgery in Jan. all my tissue showed it had responded to treatment and my pathology is very good. I still had to do 30 days of radiation which I just completed today (yay!) but, like you, I know I will be encouraged to take a follow up pill and I really dread that. Please tell me why you are lonely? Are you lacking support from your family and friends? Or do you think the sadness is hormonal? I think you should absolutely talk to your doctor. I wish the best for you, this is all much harder than people think.

      3 months ago
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      MLT

      Keep talking to us, hopefully you can feel our support.

      3 months ago
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      petieagnor

      I would talk to your oncologist & PCP for some help. In the course of 13 years I've tried several drugs. Each person is different. Find a support group or use What Next to the fullest. You're in a pit & you want out of it NOW, but unfortunately it doesn't work that way. It's one shovel of dirt at a time until you are on top. I had to cut out all of the negativity where I could, boy, that took a burden off me. Don't blame yourself & don't apologize to anyone if something doesn't go their way. That is their problem. Chemo is rough; I think I'm on my 6th since 7/2016. It's a journey not a sprint. I hope you find the help you need. Everyone is here for you.

      3 months ago
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    Marelady shared an experience

    Drug or Chemo Therapy (Chemotherapy): Did 3 rounds of red devil chemo and the 3rd one just about did me in. No more. Lost hair--hideous. Scars from lumpectomy still sore.Chemo didn't work