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    Have you wondered why you are still here hanging on to life while so many others around you have fallen?

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      JaneA

      Many of us wonder why we survived and someone else doesn't. Part of cancer survival is just "pure plain luck." Many cancer deaths are because of genetic mutations or that they had high grade cancer cells (as defined in the pathology report). Those are conditions that no human has control over.

      I used to feel a lot of guilt over my survival, but now I'm grateful. And I try to make every day be a good day. I hope that you'll find peace soon. You shouldn't feel guilty about surviving.

      about 4 hours ago
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      Bengal

      I don't feel guilty. I feel angry. Why does this %%"$% disease take some people way too young before they've had a chance at life? Why does it attack some in old age causing them great suffering at the end? Why does it take a parent from their children or a child from there parents? Why does it allow some to be "cured" while others are taken swiftly or linger on for months or years in agonizing pain? Questions that cannot be answered. It leaves all of us it has touched with fear and uncertainty as we try to pick up our lives and go on. No, I don't feel guilt. I feel rage.

      about 2 hours ago
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      Shoeless

      I've never felt survivor's guilt. I have asked why, but I know the reasons ~ I had symptoms early on due to the exact location of my tumor and I found the right facility with the right team of doctors. Everyone I know who has gone there has survived. Yes of course I am aware they have lost patients, but nobody I knew. I have told many people over the past 19 years to go there. Most make excuses why they won't or can't, the main one being it's a 3 hour drive. So they go to another "famous" facility which is a 1 hour drive. I don't personally know anyone who has been cured there although I have attended far too many funerals of friends who died while being treated there. How can I feel guilty if I told them where to go and they refused?

      6 minutes ago
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    do you wake up at different times now?

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      I still have a regular work schedule so my wake-up time remains fairly consistent. I "usually" first wake up at 4:00 a.m. when my husband gets up for work. I then wake up again around 6:20. I often check email or play with my cat until about 6:45 and then start my day.

      If my hot flashes are particularly brutal, I may get up a couple of times in the night to drink some cold water or go to the restroom. We turn our AC to 70 at night and I sleep with a fan blowing right at me, so usually I am pretty chill by the morning. I find it helps me sleep much better when I am cool or cold.

      My sleep schedule from November 2019 (first irregular mammogram) through biopsies, surgeries and eventual return to work in March- well it was toast. I was up until usually 2:30- 3:00, slept for about 30 minutes until hubby went to work and then tried to sleep for a couple of hours. I was averaging 18-21 hours of sleep a WEEK between November and January. I upped it to about 24 hours a week between January and February with the help of Xanax. I was pretty sure I was going to lose my job because I was so stressed and ineffective. After surgery, between pain medication and being forced to stay home, I did good with 6-7 hours a night for the first couple of weeks and then my workmates started making me crazy and calling me every 30 minutes and saying they were "worried" because I slept "so much."

      Then just after I returned to work, the world shut down and COVID... well that got me off course again. I now only remote in on Fridays, so my schedule is pretty consistent.

      6 days ago
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      GregP_WN

      The strangest things I had in the hospital was not sleeping much at all, then maybe sleeping 3 or 4 hours when the doctors are coming in.

      6 days ago
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      GregP_WN

      my sleep patterns are starting to change back more towards normal so that's a plus.

      about 6 hours ago
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