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      For me, I PREFER to make everyone comfortable. I don't want people ill at ease around me because I have a scary disease.

      At first, I think people didn't know how to react, no matter what my attitude was, but now, I think people mostly forget that I have cancer unless I bring it up somehow.

      about 3 years ago
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      I should add that my smile isn't fake nor brave. It is from a genuine appreciation of a new day that I can enjoy.

      Yesterday was my 4 year anniversary of learning I have cancer. My agility instructor (and great friend) and I spent the day building courses and running our dogs. The two of us built and ran a whole trial's worth of courses in only a few hours.

      We walked and ran and carried heavy equipment for over 8 miles, according to my app that measures such activities. What a way to acknowledge that life-changing day!! (It just so happened that yesterday was a weekend that we both had open ... it wasn't planned because of its significance to me)

      about 3 years ago
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      Believe me, I tried the positive route (not with cancer but with other things in my life) I "put on a happy face" The theory was if you put on a happy face you would automatically become happy and all your problems would be solved. Well that backfired I felt much worse about myself. I felt a lot of guilt because I failed. And people were definitely not comfortable around me. As far as I am concerned if people can't be comfortable around the real me, I don't want them around me. I tend to enjoy all people but I do have a tendency to prefer negative people. I am a passably good listener so that helps. One thing I am very uncomfortable with the feeling of happiness. One thing cancer has taught me is I must be myself, "my real imperfect self"

      about 3 years ago
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      Oh, boy, very true!

      about 3 years ago
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