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    At every doctor appointment,I find myself holding my breath with each blood test. I cannot help but to worry is it back? Am I alone or is this normal ,because I often feel like I am just over reacting.

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    Loss (Relationship ): What saddened me most is those I have lost along my path,friends who decided I was not " positive" for their lifestyle ( in one friends words) however they chose to live,I still am ok.because by life is precious and sacred and as i have said in a journal along my path," if you think i am gonna stop living or if you will not walk with me ,then step aside cause sally has a new plan and a and step aside cause i am waiting for KNOW ONE.be with me or be behind me .i have been called selfish and greedy and other things because i chose to help ME and wait for no one,because if i waited in ny eyes,I'd be dead .my husband,children,& mom came through full circle . I owe them the world and I owe my Goddess for sharing this beauty to all and anyone who needed a hand to hold along this hard hard path.the longest tear of my life.while going through chemo, I was fired from my job and ny husband having epilepsy,began having more due to our stressful situation,and we were left penniless.scared and nearly homeless because my landlord only thought of his $$.things got very hard.but with a positive outlook,I began to think ,see and act in that manner,when asked" how are you?" I always answered " excellent" no matter how bad I felt it looked.i have not yet hit 1 year cancer free,am not caught up yet on back bills, but with spirit and by family and true friends,I will prosper and I will be successful in all I choose, you will too if you just try thinking different,no matter what the cost,try and share your story and think positive at all costs. And may your God & or Goddess be at your side holding your hand through such a life changing time ,and remember it will not only change you ,but those around you as well. Be patient , grow and learn all you can.

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    Celebration (Other): After some deep soul searching before and during chemo sessions, I began to wonder,"why me Goddess"? What I learned and still continue learning is how to be and how to share my positive side .so I said to myself ( or rather yelled at my self) " No ,you will not give in!" I began studying and talking and joined look good feel better,a make up class at Harold leever cancer center.boy I was a mess felt like poop.but remained positive; so here I say to celebrate what we have and what we have accomplished this far and whether or not I make it or not ,I celebrate the life I have and the positive side I have shared with those who need a shoulder to cry upon or to holler at or a friend to chill with,what ever the case,we must continue strong and rise above and push with all our might and be free and never let Ms. c ( what I call cancer) take over and rule your world.yes it is what it is but with a strong spirit and an understanding of what is and what is to come we will prosper and have many many more birthdays to share with our loved ones

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    Oh No (Cancer has spread/Metastasized): Upon learning I had breast cancer, I was surprised to learn it has spread to my ly.ph nodes .i was so terrified.my head spun with the confusion of a lost dog.i felt alone and scared.

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