I'm so sorry--I do know how you feel. You should get a second opinion. Get your cancer known in the medical community. A radiologist wanted to experiment on me. I had a good chance of dying from the massive radiation treatments. Since I was told that I had something painful and fatal, I felt that I didn't have anything to lose. That will be 5 years Valentine's Day-2018.
You have my prayers--you can talk to me anytime you want. Hugs--