As SueRae answered, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I went through the exact thing on 2/1/13 when I was diagnosed and also had more cancer scares the following week. It does seem like when it rains it pours. There is a lot of good replies ahead of me so I will say I agree with them all and you have come to the right place. Let us know any specific questions or concerns that we can help with. Everyone is so helpful and Carm is a wealth of information!
Not ever being a "normal" lemming, I reacted differently than did you. I knew something was wrong. It took the docs 13 years to catch up with me and give me a diagnosis.
Like BuckeyeShelby, I researched my pafrticular challenge. At first I decided to ignore the Western Medical community as their 'solution', at the time, was rather iffy. I was knee deep into alternative solutions when a new drug came out which was said to be 95% effective against the type of cancer I had.
The next step was to find an oncologist. The first half dozen I interviewed either did not use the new drugs or would not discuss the particulars of treatment with me the "little lady" or did not have a clean office and so on and so forth. I chose the eigth doctor I interviewed because he spoke with me rather than at me, he was involved with the new drugs and could actually remember my name and had gone to the same HS school as me years before I attended.
You are grieving your lost health. It is an important step. Once you can really accept that you are sick, you can decide to do everything in your power to get well and find someone who is a good fit with you in that battle.
Very good luck for recovered good health.
You've already gotten wonderful and helpful answers from others, and we all understand your fog and disbelief. One thing that helped me was going to my local American Cancer Society and getting information. Honestly, I can't tell you how much of it I even read, but I knew they were there to help me. I was treated with such kindness there, and they helped me feel less alone. It also helped make me feel like I was doing something pro-active. It's difficult when you're in that limbo time before you start treatment, or maybe even before you have your plan.
Good luck to you, and know that we are here to help you!