Hi sophie, I can't help you in this area of cancer, but there are a ton of people on the site that have been through this. You posted this as an "update" on your home page. If you will post this as a question by clicking on the "questions" tab at the top of any page, then post your question there, you will get help from lots of people there.
Thanks for posting and let us know if we can help with anything around the site.
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