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    Side Effects (Uncontrollable random crying bouts): Sounds weird and normal I know....but this like nothing I have ever experienced.

    I am 3 months post chemo and just had my reconstructive surgery last week. So I am pretty much done except for the daily tamoxifen reminder and monitoring. I was very lucky with stage 1 not in lymphnodes. I should be happy and carefree....but I find I am having random bouts of crying for no specific reason....it just comes out at the most inopportune times too.

    This is the only thing I can figure....it's like a car accident or walking on hot coals...I have been so focused on the job at hand, surgery, chemo, more surgery that there was no emotion it was just doing. No time for negativity or reflecting on the seriousness of what was going on..just focused on getting through it day to day. Very out of body experience.

    And now that I am done its the reflection of what the heck just happened to me? Did I really just do that...remove my breasts, have surgery, do 4 months of chemo, have another surgery....really? That was me? I had what? Breast Cancer?

    So now 10 months after I started this journey I am just now starting to process it all......

    This is procrastination at it's finest!

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      Wow Statto. What you have written really touches me because I could have written it myself. I have been done with chemo since April and I'm all healed from surgery (double mx). I guess when you're dealing with the treatment you go into autopilot mode. Now that treatment is over, the reality of everything just kind of smacks you in the face. I figure that the crying must be a delayed reaction to what has happened. You verbalized it well. ...and "Procrastination at its finest" - lol! Take care my dear:)

      almost 4 years ago
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    Hi I also live in Seminole. Would like to offer some help. What can I do? You can email me privately if you like. [email redacted]. I had some reconstructive surgery yesterday but will be up and running next week.

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    Hey Jen. Thinking about you. After today only 1 chemo left!

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    Celebration (Port removed!): My port was taken out yesterday....it was very emotional marking the end of a difficult journey....hopefully I won't need one ever again!

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      That's great news! I hope you never have to see that port again!

      almost 4 years ago
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    Procedure or Surgery (Breast Reconstruction (Flap)): I just had my reconstructive surgery yesterday. Feeling good! Almost done with reconstruction now. Just healing and nipple reconstruction next.