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    Celebration (various celebrations): I celebrate the new "Me" - to recognize that I am changing with this - that I am not who I used to be - I am a new and improved version - I have been through so much, I have learned so much - I am pleased with and proud of who I am becoming

    celebrate last chemo coming up...by time you read this.....will probably be a done deal

    celebrate the rest of my life - every day - every moment - always - ever

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    Side Effects (Blood sugar, high (diabetes)): read as much as I could to know what to expect -- had some of this and some of that - had to learn to just roll with it all - that I had to allow the treatments to give me the best chance of a good outcome - you do what you can to be able to stay here a little bit longer - on days when I felt better I had to learn not to over do and set myself backwards - I didn't know what it was to be "so tired" - that word "fatigue" took on a whole new level of meaning for me - was so tired - after chemo, with the third day and the pump being taken off....would just sleep for about 2 days - but got through it

    other side effects, like nausea, constipation, came and went but peripheral neuropathy came and stayed and progressively worsened - mainly my feet and up my legs....a bit with the hands - oh and that thing with the soles of the feet and palms of the hands - if it wasn't one thing, it was something else but I try to take it all and let it run its course and just survive it all, one moment at a time and prayed for better days and just when I truly needed a "break" or some degree of relief....it happened but lord, I would not wish this journey on nobody - least of all not me but if I must go through this....I try to do the best I can with it - educate myself to what to expect and if or when it happens what can I do to lighten it, end it, etc. - or, at the very least, endure it

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    Drug or Chemo Therapy (Chemotherapy): "chemo" is different, no doubt, from one person to another but "chemo" kicks XXX

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    Procedure or Surgery (Implant chemotherapy port): a couple of weeks getting out the hospital from having the surgery to remove the cancerous growth from my colon - lower left side - was in for implantation of the portacath - same surgeon as before - everything went wonderfully well - minimal discomfort - but it only allowed to draw blood in with the first use - with that developed a clot in the area of the catheter - but I do like this way of administering drugs over how it used to be some years ago....had taken my mother and later brother for chemo and the way to administer then was with an IV in the arm and getting it over several hours and at a higher dosage than what is done nowadays - I get the initial dosing through my portacath and then leave with a pump and continue to receive the medication over the next couple days - at a slower rate - more tolerable and lessens the severity of the side effects

    looking forward to having the portacath removed - last chemo session is tomorrow - December 10th.....oh happy day! on that

    I don't like the idea of having to be cut again to get the port out but yeah, it's done it's job and kinda want to move past having it in me

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    Procedure or Surgery (Colon surgery (colectomy or hemicolectomy)): I was admitted to the hospital on a Sunday evening, with diagnosis of diverticulitis - decision to have a colonoscopy - prepped through Monday - had on Tuesday morning - doctor tells me his "findings" - moving on to having surgery Wednesday - it was a difficult surgery as the mass was more involved than what was first thought - there was some degree of obstruction but when my surgeon opened me up and saw what he saw - found that the area was about to rupture - shared later with me that had I went home on Sunday instead of agreeing to be admitted for further testing that I probably would not have made it back - by time I would have realized I was in trouble (from the pain) it would be too late to likely have a good result - I woke up in intensive care and hearing that "they" were working on stabilizing my blood pressure as it was still in the range of being at risk for a stroke

    my surgeon was wonderful - all staff/nurses, etc. were great - it was a difficult journey in recovering but I tried to take it all in - deal with the shock - having to tell my husband and then my children and then extended family and friends was hard

    I have come through the surgery about as well as anyone could and I am grateful to God - every day - it took a while to heal from the surgery - I'm diabetic - but now some months later....I'm good....was just a trying time for a while

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    Oh No (Diagnosed): It was the last Sunday in April....woke up, felt fine.....went to the bathroom and had a bowel movement....wiped....there was blood on the tissue....looked in the toilet bowl and there was a lot of bright red blood....off to the ER of a local hospital

    felt fine - no symptoms - the next couple days were just a blur - everything just happened so fast from one moment to the next, to the next, to the next

    in February, right around my birthday of the 19th, I had just said to myself that: "Whew! I have dodged the bullet. At this point in my life, being 56 years old now, I could relax, let my guard down about cancer and me. That, at this point, I won't be bothered with that "monster""... and little did I know that that mess was inside me and had been for some time....quietly/secretly eating away at me

    last thing, in the world, I figured I would be having to deal with at this point in my life